Part 4: Hawai- O'ahu and maui.

Half way through December and I am finally finishing up my " November stories" oh where has the time gone. On a side note, dating a girl who is really active means that she always has ideas for fun things to do and try which leaves you little free time but you are usually always entertained.

When I left off on the last post I had just finished off in L.A. (with the girl I just mentioned) and I was flying to Hawaii. I had two stops planned for Hawaii, I was planning on staying 10 days on O'ahu with two of my friends from Alaska, and then after that I was going to hop over to the island of Maui to spend another week with a friend from Alaska who is now living on Maui.

This trip marked the 3rd time for me going to O'ahu and to be honest I would much rather go other places. O'ahu is the main tourist Island of Hawaii. particularly a section of O'ahu called waikiki. I typically always tell people if they plan on visiting Hawaii to go to Waikiki first because you can do all the tourist things there, then when you go to Hawaii again you can go to a different Island and do more of an actual "Hawaiian experience". The reason I went back to O'ahu this time was because it was my friends first time to Hawaii and like I just stated. Since it was their first time we decided on going to O'ahu. Don't get me wrong though, you can have a lot of fun. It's just that it is a tourist trap and everyone knows what that is like.

 I met up with my friends at the airport and we headed to the hotel. These two guys were friends that I have grown up with from my childhood and we were all more of like brothers. I love these guys and we always have fun together but they do have their downsides just like everyone has. There biggest pit fall is they are unmotivated and huge gamers. there was several times I had to motivate them to leave the hotel to go out and do stuff instead of sit in the room and play their gamboy 3ds. sounds insane I know.

None the less we did have our fun and lots of it. We did all the touristy things from surfing, paddle boarding, and going on water tricycles. We went to a water park which was very fun, hiked a dormant volcano dome, swam in the ocean and sun bathed (mostly burning).

One of the memories that I came away with was a little adventure we had while renting mopeds. We had planned to rent mopeds, go to the volcano to hike, drive around and then turn the mopeds back in at night. All was going well and the day was soon to end. We decided to head back to the moped shop to turn them in. On our way back we came speeding up to a pedestrian crosswalk when my friend in front of me slammed on his breaks because someone wanted to cross. Which in turn caused me to slam on my breaks, unfortunately my friend behind me had barley any time on any kind of motorcycle and the next thing I remember is a hard crash in the back of me and me falling to the pavement. FUCK!

My friend didn't stop fast enough and he ran into me. We were both ok but my friend had some minor cuts on his foot and leg, I had a couple bruises and scratches but nothing dramatic. The more concerning thing was the mopeds. Mine was fine and no visible damage, the other one had some broken pieces and a front tired fender cracked. I knew we were in for it because we opted not to take up any insurance when we rented them. We composed our selves and drove back to the shop where the guy began to over rationalize the damage. I mentioned to him if it was substantial damage then I wanted a moped mechanic to come by and give me a quote on the damages which I'm sure went in one ear and out the other. He through out a number of 900$! declaring that the whole front end was bent and had to be replaced. Basically he was screwing us over. I talked to my friend about it and he was fine with paying whatever so after a little bit of bartering with the guy I got him to settle for 775$ and me and my friend split the cost. since we split the cost it wasn't a huge deal but still not very enjoyable. My friend said sorry to me to which I told him It really wasn't a big deal, shit happens and in the end it is a story we will have and be able to laugh over in the future. everything is cool.

The next major event was something very fun. I had been texting the girl I had met and went on a date with in seattle a few weeks ago (part 1) and the vibe was staying pretty positive and good. She sounded so enthused about Hawaii so... I invited her to come down. At first it was more or less just a harmless invite that I didn't think too much about. Her reactions were positive and with a little bit of text game and negotiations I was able to help persuade her little hamster in her head and she bought a ticket for that upcoming weekend.

Pretty crazy but sometimes all you have to do is offer and do a little persisting and magic can happen. Friday night came and she arrived at the hotel.

I had booked a separate hotel room because there was no way she was staying with me and my two friends in one room. The weekend turned out to just be me and her which my friends were ok about. They just played games the whole weekend anyways. This girl was very fun and had a very adventurous and funny/quirky personality. although she stayed for the weekend we only ended up having sex 3 times but we could have went for more if we stayed in the room more. We had a lot of fun which included dining at the top of a revolving restraunt looking over waikiki's skyline, some beach time, going to the zoo, and a few other activities. It turned out to be very enjoyable and those types of things happen to you when you learn daygame. You end up having a lot of enjoyable times with the girls and people you want to be with.

The girl left Sunday night and me and my friends had a few more days before they left and I went to Maui. Once I was on Maui things were very different. I get a really really unmotivated vibe from Maui which is good in its own way as that is what the island attracts. My friend that lives there adds to that. Same thing, I love the guy and he is a great guy but there are some things I don't really care for about his lifestyle. he does have things he is doing in his life which is good but more or less it revolves around smoking weed. The thing that I do respect him about though is that he accepts that and he wants that as a lifestyle which is why he moved to Maui and why he loves it there so much so I really respect him for that and doing what he wants to do... it's just not what I want so our personalities bump occasionally.

All in all it was an enjoyable stay on Maui as well. Didn't do a whole lot outside of beach things but I didn't have the expectations that I was going to do a lot on Maui anyways. One of my missions this winter was to just try and live life and live the experiences. One of those experiences was smoking weed with my friend. I never smoked before (shocking I know) and I just wanted to experience it, and experience it I did. We smoked quite a bit the week I was there and while I did trip out a bit on it, it was enjoyable and fun but I feel so unmotivated on it so if I plan on smoking it in the future I will limit it to the same as I do binge drinking which is usually only on special or rare occasions when I want to let loose have crazy fun or something along those lines.

So it was time to leave Maui and end my Hawaii vacation and head back to L.A. where I would be getting into the relationship with the girl there for the winter and enjoy the rest of the winter while concentrating on other the things I am trying to accomplish this winter. That's it for the November stories. hope they were entertaining and as always until next time, stay tuned cosmonauts :)

Traveling stories part 3: Portland and L.A

Sorry for the delay on the posts folks. Just got finished with my 17 day vacation in Hawaii which included 10 days on O'ahu and a week on Maui. I didn't spend anytime online which is the reason for the lack of posts except for the last one when I was nurturing a sun burn :|  Well I'm back in L.A now and today is the first day of my winter grind, so first on the list was to update the blog.

After leaving Vancouver, Canada with only 5 hours of sleep I headed straight to Portland, Oregon. I have a friend from Alaska who is living in Portland and has his birthday a day after mine so I made it a point to be in attendance. I also had plans of meeting another fellow daygamer that lived in Portland that I had met on the daygame forums.

After arriving in Portland I contacted the daygamer from the forums and we met up. He turned out to be a pretty cool guy. One year older than me and had been doing daygame for about a 1/4 of the time I had but his progress was very quick and he was someone you knew would excel at it. It was kind of lame because me and this guy connected really well. It's like when two people have the same mind frames, beliefs, and think very similar you can benefit so much from each other. Every one does better around like minded people and this was the first daygamer I had been around that thought pretty much exactly how I did so we clicked instantly. We only daygamed for a short few hours but it was way fun being introduced to downtown Portland and all the unique perspectives it had to offer. I managed to get a number and an instant date but nothing progressed out of either but I wasn't expecting much out of just one day in Portland.

After our short daygame session we went and grabbed a beer where we talked about theory and other life pertaining topics which is where being around like minded people can do wonders. After hanging out for a bit it was time for me to meet up with my friend for his B-day celebration so I said goodbye to my new wing in Portland and headed over to my friends.

My friend was hosting a dinner at a local middle eastern/ Indian restaurant which actually was way good. Afterwards we went to a local ice cream shop that was serving flavors such as: minced meat pie, olive oil and sea salt, brown sugar and coffee, as well as a few "normal" flavors. I decided to not be too extreme and go with snickerdoodle and cinnamon. From there we dropped in numbers to just 5, it was my friend, his 3 other band members, and me. We headed to a local pub and they decided on drinks. I planned on driving to LA in the morning so I only had the opening round of a tequila shot. We bounced to about 4 different pubs while everyone was getting more and more drunk and soon it was just down to my friend, his bass player, and me. I was DD  but it was cool. It was soon 3:30 AM and I was planning on driving to LA at 7 am so I could be there before midnight. I also planned on being asleep by about midnight so I could get enough sleep to do so. I also somehow forgot people go out and party on their B-days into the wee hours of the night.

I ended up dropping my friend and his bass player off and decided to say  "Fuck it" and hit the road. Filled up on gas, bought some munchies, put on the Ipod and........ pulled over about 2 hours later to go to sleep hahahha. I only slept for a few hours before I was back on the road, drove for about 8-10 hours before feeling exhausted and pulled off for another hour of sleep and then mad it the rest of the way to LA. You know what with only such a limited amount of sleep over those few days I only almost fell asleep at the wheel probably about 5 times... not to bad :P

Eagerly awaiting me in LA was the girl I am buckling down with for the winter. After arriving, Having a short passionate kiss I hit the shower making sure to clean off the reminisce of all the abused adrenaline I've managed to use over the last week. It didn't take long after that before we were in bed tangled inbetween each other. The reason I decided to stay with this girl for the winter is for many reasons. mainly out of all the girls I've been with she is the one who closely resembles me and we connected and see eye to eye really well. she also has the figure I love which is about 5'6'' and 140lbs, not chubbie! she is proportionate and has a sex drive of a 16 year old boy. Also she is pretty damn kinky which is a topping to the cake. On a normal day she is a 7 but dressed up and flashy she can pull off an 8. She has long flowing brunette hair, a nice full ass, and Large breasts that are fake, we are in LA after all.

I had 3 days scheduled for LA before it was off to Hawaii for 17 days and in those 3 days I can say I managed to do one thing. spend about a months worth of sperm. girl just did not want to stop :) Even better is she got on birth control before I came ( pun intended) so that means no rubber for the whole winter YIPPEE! The whole time in LA was pretty much straight forward. Wake up have sex, Do whatever during the day, go out for food, come home have sex multiple times. After 3 days of that I was actually pretty wore out. I mean a guy only has so much to offer. After all that she drove me to the airport where we kissed and said goodbye.

Next stop was Hawaii where things got a little frisky, dangerous, and adventurous. So until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

Traveling stories part 2: Vancouver

Right now I am in my hotel room in Hawaii. Why am I sitting in a hotel room in Hawaii writing this blog post. well since you so might have asked, I'm as bright as a tomato from sun burn so I couldn't think of a better time to write up this post while I shy away from the sun and whine about my burns :p

When I last left off I had a wonderful end to my stay in Seattle which included me driving a girl I picked up the day before in a mall back to her house because she was drunk and puking everywhere. After getting back to my hotel and sleeping for 4 hours I took a quick shower, packed all my things and checked out of my room. Next stop was Vancouver Canada for two days to visit a friend and do some more daygame.

The drive to Vancouver from Seattle was alright and was only 3 hours. I had a bit of a hassle at the boarder when the guard at the checkpoint asked me why I was going to Vancouver. My response: to meet up with a friend and go party. I'm not sure he liked that answer to much as he then sent me to the screening area to have my truck searched. about an hour after arriving at the boarder checkpoint I was off again to Vancouver. Good thing they didn't find that kilo of cocaine I was smuggling...... juuuuuuuuuuuust kidding.

The friend I was planning on meeting up with was a kid I met in Seattle on one of the daygame forums a couple years ago when I lived there and I helped him get into daygame and we've stayed in contact since then. He was going to college in Vancouver and invited me up for the weekend. After arriving and catching up we headed to a mall to do a bit of daygame. The mall was pretty big and we even got lost a couple times. We both did a few approaches and I got a number from one but wasn't really attracted to her after talking to her so I decided I wasn't going to contact her. For the night we planned on going into downtown Vancouver to the main street called Granvelle St. with all the night clubs. Vancouver's night life was pretty cool and we didn't even go into any clubs. It was like the whole street was one outdoor club. I managed to do a bit of approaches but even though we were outside it had a "night game" vibe to it which I didn't care for and I quickly lost my motivation add that to the 4 hours of sleep that day and I was pretty out of it so no action for the day.

The next day was a day to remember. We walked into downtown Vancouver for some more day game and this is where I was blown away by Vancouver. To me Vancouver is almost like a small New York. It has the same look as the city and the same vibe but a bit smaller and a more friendly vibe it was way cool. I even told myself after leaving that I would love to live there for like 6 months. The daygame was pretty good in downtown as well. Tons of attractive girls around every corner. I did a bit of approaches but my vibe was still a little low and I never really got going full on.

Two Approaches stand out from all the ones I did. One was of a Eastern European girl who was living in Vancouver now. She was cute but nothing super special. I decided to bounce her for an instant date just for the hell of it and we went to a starbucks. I told her it was my birthday that day and she bought me my drink. we then walked to a store where she had to get some things. Afterward we talked for a bit more and then she went on her way. I didn't really feel really into her so I didn't really follow her up except sent her an add on facebook. The next approach was the golden ticket. My friend pointed out a girl and said he thought he had approached her before and told me to go approach her so I went over to her. She ended up being 40! but she was actually pretty cute. she was short and petite so she held her youth really well and I guessed she was like 35.

She was a really nice girl and we had a pretty lengthy conversation. I tried to bounce her for an instant date but she declined all my offers. She told me she wasn't into dating anymore and really wanted to settle down more. I figured to interaction wasn't going to lead anywhere so we said goodbye, gave her a hug and started to walk away. Then she said this magical line. "I'll be at xxxxxx place if you want to come by tonight" I walked back up to her and said that she can't say her goodbye and then say something like that. I took her number and said I'll invite her out and if she wants to meet up cool and if not then no big deal. It turned out that wasn't the same girl my friend approached but we soon went back to his place to hang out for a bit.

The plan was to go to a electro concert that night with my friend. I texted the girl and she was being very receptive. I eventually suggested a meet up for a drink and she agreed and the gleemer of light turned brighter. We had planned to meet up later in the evening at a classy pub for a couple drinks. We met up out side to which I found out she lived about 2 blocks away (first sign of a green light). We went to the venue where we ordered drinks and started to create more of a connection. She was a very feminine girl and had a lot of character traits I liked and the conversation flowed well with a lot of chemistry involved. She Suggested bouncing to a nearby venue where she had a friend DJ'ing. we swung by the venue and had another drink and danced a bit. about 30 minutes after arriving I told her I needed to get going to the concert I was planning on going to with my friend. I pulled her in and told her to walk me. She grabbed her things and we headed out the door.

It helped that my truck was parked in the same direction as her place. When it got to the point of either going to my truck or the direction of her place I changed directions and headed to her place while keeping her mind occupied with conversation. standing outside her place I said " aren't you going to invite me in" we kissed and ran inside. While inside we hung out for about 5 minutes before she straddled me and I picked her up and carried her to her bedroom. We stripped down and got more sexual. I asked if she wanted me to grab a condom and she said she was on a birth control and was clean. BAM! say no more. we started to have sex and it was a pretty good sensual fuck. After sex we hung out for a bit before my friend called me drunk saying the concert isn't all that good and to meet him back at his place. Me and the girl got dressed and headed outside. We parted ways and I went to my truck where a problem arised.

Turns out the parking garage I was in closed at 12 and it was now 12:30 am. I waited in this lobby of an apartment next to the garage and figured I would wait 5 hours until the garage reopened. about an hour later a security gaurd came around and I asked him about the garage which he had a key for so I was able to get my truck out. I headed to my friends place where I found him drunk and spending most of the time in the bathroom puking. I passed out shortly after to the noises of him struggling with his drunkness. The morning I was planned to go to Portland for the day and then onwards to LA

I woke up then next day with 5 hours of sleep, took a shower, me and my friend talked about the night and then said our goodbyes. Vancouver is awesome and was a great experience now it was onward to Portland..... to be continued

Seattle, Vancouver, Portland, LA, Hawaii stories

This past 10 days have been more exciting to me than my whole summer of work in my eyes.

It all started as I left Alaska. I landed in Seattle, Took a cab to get my truck and after jump starting it because it had been sitting for 7 months I went to a local motel to set up base camp. Prior To landing in Seattle I had already had a few leads to work on. One was a really attractive 20 year old Romanian girl that I had been keeping the attraction going for the last 6 months, strangely she became a little distant in the last month but more on that later. The next lead was a Russian girl I had approached the last time I was in Seattle. Barley kept in contact with her but her text seemed warm so she was a possibility. The last prospect was a girl I was seeing for about a month when I lived there 2 years ago. Each time I made a stop in Seattle we would usually catch up but the last time didn't end in sex. I felt like she was definitely my meal ticket.

After trying to text the Russian and her not responding I figured she flaked, not a big deal as I figured she would. The main shocker came from the Romanian girl. I had put in extensive work with this girl and the last time I was in Seattle it ended with her in my hotel room and me going down on her. I eventually got in contact with her after her giving me a bit of a cold shoulder and found out she recently got into a relationship. Not a big deal, I did want to still see her just to catch up because in the end I'm not just out to sleep with girls I do like connecting with them. We made plans for us to meet up at a mall at 7. Well 7 O' clock came and she was nowhere to be found. I don't blame her though, I feel like she Is highly attracted to me and if she was around me she might be tempted to be a little precarious. That leaves the last girl, well low and behold after I mentioned something along the lines of me seducing her she told me she also just got into a relationship. FOR FUCKS SAKE! Anyways, I did manage to land a meet up with her. We went out and got some food, flirted for a bit, and she took me back to my truck. I kissed her on her cheek a few times and that was all she let progress even with my persistence.

That is the result of my promising leads from Seattle, turns out they weren't so promising. That is just one part of the Seattle failure there is oh so much more to tell.

The night I landed in Seattle I Approached a girl in a grocery store. The interaction went decent and I felt like I had a 50/50 chance with her. Over the next few days I went through hell and back. I went out daygaming and I figured I approached about 30 girls. I would like to say it was loads of fun but I would be drastically lying. Approach after approach I failed and got rejected. It was pretty harsh but Daygame has its swings just like anything else. I did manage to get another number which flaked, surprise surprise. I also landed an instant date with a pretty bubbly girl who ended up flaking on the texting and who had a BF and of course the girl from the grocery store flaked as well.

Seattle was not turning into a very good experience but a glimmer of hope surfaced.

It was my last approach I was planning on doing for that trip. I saw her, and my mentality shifted and I just felt like I was going to be able to land something with her. Short petite girl with long black hair, bright eyes and a quirky fashion sense. I approached her and quickly found out she had a very snappy/ smart personality. The type of girl to call you out on your shit and then walk away. Challenge me she did and I feel like it is because I was able to hold my frame and not be affected by her challenges for the reason that she became attracted to me. The script switched and now she was showing interest in me. I suggested to go to get smoothies for an instant date and she agreed. We talked for about 30 minutes and really created some chemistry. She had to go so we swapped numbers. Later we planned a date for the next day as I was leaving the morning after.

We met up at a local bar for a couple drinks and continued the connection, afterwards we went next door to an ice rink for some ice skating. My friend had contacted me and wanted to meet up that night as well to go out for drinks so I invited her out for drinks and dancing and she accepted. We met up with my friend and all went downtown where we were all having a lot of fun and having a few drinks. We bounced to a couple different venues and a problem quickly arised. My girl had drank too much.... I was trying to sober her up but to no avail it didn't work. She said she wanted to go home so I began to walk her to my truck where she began puking all the way home.... Strike 3 and I'm out. It sucked because this girl was a way cool girl ( i'm actually talking to her on facebook right now) We share the same personality traits so I can see this leading to a future success story.

5 days in and the tale is off to a fast start. The next day was Toronto for 2 days where the stories are even juicier..... To be continued.

200th post! lay report, end of season.

Alright alright aliriiiiiight! Finally it is here, the end of my work season. Yesterday was the last day for this season and it couldn't have come any sooner. The last few weeks were grueling and I actually genuinely wanted to quit about 4 days prior to the end. I've been working with this company for the last 8 years in the summer and I am really starting to resent the people I work with. I already planned on next season being my last season but we'll see If I even make it that far before flipping the bird and saying FUCK IT!

Enough of the complaining and on to the good stuff. Well 2 weeks before the end of the season I was finally able to get a lay from just daygame this summer. I have had a lay from online and a girl gave me a bj as well but just from strictly daygame this was the only one. There were a few other situations that could have lead to sex but I either turned it away or blew it, but with the lack of quality in AK I'm somewhat ok with just being able to have landed one girl.

I do feel like I have progressed a lot during this summer even though work really put limitations to how much I could game. None the less I do it for the enjoyment, the process, and then experience of it all with the results being the last thing I worry about. Or that is what I try to do anyways.

Unfortunately This lay wasn't even enjoyable to me. The process leading up to it was cool but actually laying the girl was a bit of a drag. Kind of the "thrill of the chase" syndrome. She was a sweet 22 year old girl, about 5'2'' black hair and petite. She also had two kids which didn't bother me at the time because I have no plans on being baby daddy. It also put a little bit of an obstacle in the way when trying to date/ lay her.

since she had her kids she was occupied with them always, so trying to find a time in our schedules to meet up proved difficult. The only thing that really saved it was the fact that I lived downtown and she worked about 4 blocks away and had lunch about 30 minutes after I got off work. So that was the window of opportunity with this girl, an hour lunch on the weekdays.

First date was just a coffee meet up for about 30 minutes. Nothing special, just building some comfort with her and talking about normal stuff. The next date was at a popular sandwhich shop. After lunch I built more of a connection and chemistry and by the end of the date we were hand in hand and kissing. The 3rd meet up I got her to come over to my place but she verbally said she was hesitant about it and I calmed her nerves and just made her comfortable with my place. She came back over the next day and we had sex.

The sex, as I said wasn't really that enjoyable to me. I actually enjoy taking my time with a girl and being able to seduce her to where she is begging for more. Since she only had a short time limit, that wasn't possible. The second factor was that she had 2 kids. Covered in clothes she was a pretty attractive girl, but naked she was a bit farther from being attractive. Sounds bad I know but I'm a guy. The sex was kind of fast and not really saucy by any means so not much to report. After that she Texted me about 5 days later asking if it was a hit and run. I really don't like hurting girls or lying to them so I just worded my responses to not include hurtful things. fortunately for me I leave in a couple days so that is the easy scape goat for me.

Last but not least this post is the mark of my 200th post on this blog. I actually really enjoy blogging for me It is a way to not only talk about things I want to talk about but it is also like a personal journal that I can share for whoever wants to read it. Something I can look back on and recollect the memories. I have big plans over the next couple years which includes creating 1 or more websites and this blog might end up being shifted over to 1 of those sites.

To anyone that reads or follows my blog I really really appreciate it. I don't do this particular blog for any kind of following but having a following is cool and I really enjoy having readers.  I appreciate any kind of support you guys show and thank you for reading.

So until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

Pushing past comfort zones.

Day game will teach you many things that you can use in all aspects of your life. One of which is being able to push past comfort zones.

Fortunately this Isn't only going to relate to day game but your whole life in general. Comfort zones can be both great and horrible. You can feel comfortable with a person to be able to connect and relate to them or you can also live your life in fear because you are too afraid to leave your comfort zone.

Not being able to step outside of your comfort zone can be what defines a persons life. If you think about it almost everything you have had to do in your life you probably weren't 100% comfortable doing. When you were a young teenager going for your drivers license were you comfortable taking the test or were you nervous, when you went after that job you really wanted did you ever second guess yourself? Or how about that girl sitting over in the corner of the coffee shop practically begging for you to go talk to her.

Without stepping outside your comfort zone you simply don't experience life. A quote I heard said " you have to become comfortable at being uncomfortable". Meaning that you have to be ok with the thought and idea that being uncomfortable is ok.

Do you want to pursue a new career but you are scared of the possible negative outcome? Do you want to move up stakes in poker because you feel you are ready but you are afraid to lose money? Are you staying in a relationship you don't care for because it will be too hard to find a new one?

The only way to grow, push forward, and experience better things is to take action and push past your comfort zones. If not you simply missed out on what could have been, but you won't ever know because you didn't step outside your comfort zone.

Are you living life?

Same day lay mission

Here is a story that happened to me last weekend when I was daygaming.

It was Saturday and I was feeling good. The day before I had a good day of daygaming that included hanging out with a girl for an hour That I had approached before she went to work. In that time I tried to kiss her 3 times. After she went to work I landed another approach that went really well and set up a date for the upcoming weekend. To put it short, I was feeling good.

Today I was hitting the mall right next to my place, There's a reason I'm staying where I am staying  ;) After rocking up to the mall and spending a little time inside I found that it wasn't very busy in terms of hot girls running about. Well this is Alaska after all, not many hot girls in general. There was a couple approaches that didn't lead anywhere as well as an amusing one that went " I just wanted to tell you that you look attractive for an older woman"  "I'm 30....."  ...... anyways.... After those approaches I felt like it was just going to be one of those days. A day that you want to put in the effort but there just isn't anything to put the effort into.
Then I saw her.

A small young girl walking out of a bra/panty store wearing tight fitting grey leggings that shaped very well to the contour of her small tight ass. The primal instinct kicked in and I ran after her. I stopped her and began to gaze into her eyes as I began to create a conversation with her. She had shy personality, yet she wasn't afraid. I found out she was only here for the day, living a few hours away she came into the city for shopping. Finding out she was Russian was a big surprise as she didn't have an accent but looking down at her breasts I found a reason to believe her. Such a sweet nice girl with a body that would make you drool.

She insisted that she needed to find jeans and asked if I could help walk her to the store, good sign. We began walking. I brought her to the store and told her that I wanted some frozen yogurt and she was coming with me. She agreed and we went on our way. She was following my lead as younger girls love to do and it was going smoothly. After getting our frozen yogurt, we sat down and began to have a proper instant date chat. learning a little bit more about each other, nothing too special. We finished up and I began to walk her to the store again. In front of the store I told her I wasn't going to shop with her as girls take too long to shop. I said we would probably never see each other again and she agreed. I asked her if she likes Italian sodas as I know a really good place close by. She hadn't had one so I told her we are going to go get one and she followed my lead again.

The Italian soda place I just outside the mall about a block away, conveniently about 1 block away from my place as well. From here I think you know where my thoughts were at. After we were handed our sodas she followed me as we began to walk in the direction of where my place just so happened to be conveniently located. We arrived at the corner, just about 50 feet away was my place, all that I need to do now is suggest coming up for some music and funny videos on the computer, lead the interaction and enjoy the fruits of my labor.

That's when captain destruction on the mighty destructor stepped in. RING RING!!! her phone began to go off. She answers it and tells the peron on the phone she is in one of the stores in the mall. She gets off the phone and says, "sorry I have to go" .... so.... damn.... close....

Before she leaves I take her number as we hug and part ways. Even without the happy ending to the story, I was loving how things turned out. I enjoyed the process of being able to lead the interaction but sometimes you just can't fade the case ace on the river.

I began texting her and we've texted a few times since then. She is going to try and come back up to see me before I leave. she seems to show a lot of interest but girls are girls so I won't be holding my breath by any means. Next is the date set up for this weeknd with the girl from the day before. We'll see if she comes through.

until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

The final countdown!

Well it's that time of the season for me again, where I have about 5 weeks left and I can't wait for things to be done. Of course the end of the season isn't ever a happy time for me until the final day because usually it is filled with everyone having attitudes, lack of sleep, and horrible weather. It actually snowed today uuuughhh.

On the bright side this last week went really well In a lot of aspect of life. for last weekend to this weekend that just past I had a lot of good times daygaming including getting about 6 or 7 numbers of which a few have seemed to hook decently and I have a date planned for tomorrow so we'll see how it turns out.

I also finally had a day off Which was good, just hung out with some friends nothing exciting but it seems the more time I get a chance not to work the more I look forward to not working. Daytrading has been going extremely difficult. there is times where I think to myself yeah I understand this no problem then there are times where I'm like mmmmmm no fucking clue. which has pretty much been this last couple weeks. I really really want to be a profitable day trader as it really fits my personality so I hope over the next couple years I finally understand how to be profitable. Until then I'll just keep smashing my head against the wall, one day I'll break through it :P

There really isn't a whole lot to post about which is kind of lame. I like being able to fill my blog with fun exciting news but work sucks all the fun times out of the summer :(  but this winter should be filled with a lot of excitement and is only a short while away and then after that, just one more season of work and I will be on my own for a while (hopefully for good). Oh I'm getting my wisdom teeth removed, I guess that's exciting....

Until next time cosmonauts stay tuned

Future plans post red pill.

I touched on this briefly in the last post but I've been wanting to write this post for the last couple of weeks but I have just been too busy to.

After learning daygame and getting good at it you come across a reality kick. You realize that after everything you've been told about how finding "the one" will just happen and how things just work out how they work out is very different from what you come across in game/seduction.

Once you learn these skills you end up becoming the chooser and not the chosen. You have a never ending choice of which girls you decide to get involved with. Even with these dating skills some guys will still choose to get into relationships and sometimes even still get married. every one is different so whatever they want is up to them. The thing that matters the most is that they chose to do is, it didn't just happen that way.

After realizing you actually can control your dating life you start to realize that other things in your life can be controlled as well. Why are you living where you live, why are you working where you work, why do you do the things that you do. once you are consumed by the thought of "the red pill" you start to question why it is you do the things in your life. That is precisely where I am at for the moment.

Although I have found out over the years that my plans can change very quickly, I have still made plans for my future Post red pill. It has been a few years that I have been telling people close to me that I'm not to interested in my job and I'd rather be doing things for myself. with the whole "red pill" kick I've decided to quit my job after next season and venture into a more entrepreneur style of "work". I will be going from making 50k-60k net to probably barley making 30k net and the thought of it makes me happy because I will be doing what I want to do and how I want to do it.

I really don't care for America to be honest, I'm just tired of it at the moment and I find Europe so much more enticing. When I quit my job I plan on moving to Europe. I can only stay in certain places for up to 3 months so I will be moving every 3 months which is something I would absolutely love since I love traveling.

All of this will happen In about a years time. I know there is a lot of information out there stating that the best time to take action is now. I understand this but In 1 years time I will be in a really really good spot to take this leap and come out successful compared to if I were to start now.

In that time I plan on working on a bunch of entrepreneurial ideas that I have that involve free lance writing, working on my own website, start teaching guys daygame, and daytrading. Once I am in Europe I will also be able to play online poker again which I do believe I would enjoy again, I can teach english in certain countries as well as work under the table for construction companies or different options. So the income I'm not really worried about and I'm actually excited to start trying to venture out for myself although I am a little nervous but in an excited way.

A big addition between now and before I move to Europe is that I am planing on dating the girl I've been seeing from LA. I am going to take a break from approaching for a little while and focus on her. we have a lot in common and we plan on doing a bit of traveling. The only reason why I decided to get serious with her is because I believe I can benefit from her being in my life and we can have some really positive and fun times. I know you guys are probably saying oooo she's going to change you but I am very set in my ways and it would take A LOT for her to change my mind about moving to europe.

So this whole post is basically me pushing towards what really makes me happy, what I want to do because it is what I want to do and not what others expect of me. That is how I want to live my life and that is what the red pill makes you realize.

so until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

My red pill exposure.

In the last post I talked about the idea of the real life "red pill" and how life isn't really what it is thought to be. In this post I wanted to talk about how I am living life now that I am looking through it with a new thought process.

Daygame/seduction is what did it for me. when I was 16-22 I had two serious relationships and looking back on it they both kind of just happened and more than not the two girls pursued me. After the last break up I had pretty negative thoughts towards dating and I moved to Vegas for the winter to have some fun, play poker for the winter, gain some life experience, and just get out. It was when I was about to leave vegas at the end of my stay that I "found" game. I was going out to the clubs about every other weeknd. nothing super crazy just going out getting drunk having fun, dancing, and trying to talk to girls... trying.

That's where it started. When I was going to the clubs without knowing any kind of game or seduction techniques I was still trying to approach. Unfortunately I was shit at conversations. I am generally a quite guy, and even over the years of pushing my boundaries and maturing my life and expanding, I am still a pretty quite guy. just who I am. Nothing wrong with that it's just it's not very helpful when it comes to conversations. So while I was clubbing in vegas and trying to approach the interactions would usually go the same. hey how are you, where you from, how's your night going, what are you drinking...etc. Like I was expecting them to fall in my lap just because I came over to talk to them. oooooh being young and unexperienced.

Well at the end of my stay in vegas I was getting pretty frustrated when talking to girls and not being able to build a conversation with them. I eventually youtubed "how to talk to girls" and came across some videos I liked. They were of a dating coach in austraila who primarily talked to girls during the day. I started watching more of his videos and by time I went back up to Alaska I wanted to try and start approaching girls during the day. I eventually found the "pick up community" online. (basically a bunch of websites, forums, articles, and so on of dating, pickup, game, and seduction). After finding the community online and approaching I began to take it more serious and put a lot of effort in trying to improve my dating life.

Learning game/seduction is great and I actually really suggest every male to try and do so. It isn't because you are able to have sex with the girls that you want but for me it is more so that your whole life changes for the better. you learn in game that you have to be an "attractive man", but that doesn't mean looks. you are attractive by the things you do in your life. hobbies, interests, style/fashion, grooming, physique, attitude, confidence, and so much more. so game really changes you to become a genuine real man and a man that you should be. That is why I like game and suggest other to try to learn it.

After getting decent consistent results in game my mind state shifted. I was able to meet the girls I wanted in my life and be able to put what ever kind of effort I wanted into them and if I didn't like them then I would move on to the next one. That is pretty much the start of my red pill exposure.

 Abundance

Being able to have the girls in your life and being able to be the chooser instead of the chosen is a great ability and experience. No longer will you have to "wait for the one" to come along. you go out and find her. Now being the chooser my mind began to shift. Why do people get married. most guys don't know game and have abundance so they live in scarcity and they end up settling with whatever comes along. If they had abundance would they get married? possibly, but this time it would be with a girl of their dreams and not some girl that fell into their lap. My thoughts on marriage aren't productive so I don't want to get married anyway but that's besides the point the point is that my mind started to shift from the thoughts of settling, and living in comfort and instead was being replaced with Abundance, pushing the boundaries, not settling, and trying to really see how far I can take life.

That's where I was exposed to the red pill. Now I was looking through my eyes in a way and thought process of not settling. Not just with women but with all aspects in my life. I've come to realize that over the past years of my career I really don't care for what I'm doing. It's ok, it pays great, but it's comfortable and isn't what I truly want to be doing with my life. So I decided after next season I'm quitting and going after what I really want. At this point in my life I don't really care for the American scenery and I find europe so much more intriguing. When I quit my job next year, I'm moving to Europe for however long it seems fit. I'm trying to have an intersting life instead of a boring comfortable life by introducing new things. I want to take salsa dance classes, I'm going to try free lance writing, and I'm learning how to day trade. I want to travel as much as possible and expose myself to new things, new people, new cultures, and new experiences.

I want to live life.

The list goes on but that is where I am at. It all started with the simple idea of trying to learn how to talk to women that made realize that life isn't what it is made out to be. You don't have to settle down and get married with the first girl you spend a couple years with, you don't have to settle with the job you are in if you don't care for it. you don't have to live your life in an unintersting and unexciting way. Once you realize that, truly realize that and take action. That is when you begin to escape the matrix. You have to take action though. So until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

and,

TAKE ACTION!

The red pill.

So A little while ago I wrote a post on the daygame  forum about taking the "red pill"
and I thought I could share it on here as well. maybe even enlighten some people to a more open minded way of thinking.
If anyone is unsure of what I am talking about the reference basically comes from the movie the matrix.

Even though this is a movie the concept is very real. we might not take any "pills" but we are in a world that is controlled. There are plenty of people out there who have already covered this topic and it can vary from relationships to jobs and your everyday life but the overlying theme is that we live a life that is already laid out for us in steps on how we should live our lives instead of how we actually really want to.

Have you ever put a decent amount of thought into why you live your life the way you do, or why you HAVE to live a certain way. What if you were to go against what is "socially normal". The thoughts can go deeper and deeper but taking action is what really matters. I have actually began my own journey but I will save that for the next post.

here is the post I wrote up on the forum. Although it is mainly centered around daygame/seduction you can still relate to it in an every day life.

This is going to be extremely TL;DR to forewarn you but could be worth it. I know this might all seem like a lot of nonsense talk but those who are far enough to recognize what I am talking about will see it and maybe some that aren't. If nothing else watch the clips at the end of the post, Enjoy

I look back on it now and I think it was about 6 months ago. 6 months ago I took the red pill and my life has changed, there's no going back now.

for anyone wondering what "the red pill" is. in a fictional base if you seen or watch the movie The Matrix the red pill is offered to Neo a character in the movie so he can leave the matrix.

In real life the "matrix" is the system. it's the way society has programed us to live without us even knowing.

First off I want to say I am one of those people who don't really look much into "conspiracies" or "thats what they want you to believe" type of things. so if you do read this and think that than you either are to far stuck into the system or have yet to be induced by the red pill.

let it begin...   can you truly and honestly say you don't care what others think? truly true to yourself, can you say and know that you don't care what others think?

we all get into this mainly because we want to get good with women. there might be a little bit different motives here or there but the underlying theme is we want to have the type of women we want in our life. so we learn.

After learning some theory and applying it you can quickly come to find that seduction/game is a learnable skill. a skill that can be mastered if you so choose but not necessary.

How do we get the women we want after we find the seduction community. we learn, we learn what we need to to and how to do it to be able to land the girls we want. first it might start with theory, then techniques and inner game. The more you get serious about game/seduction the more it molds your life into an attractive lifestyle and you begin to mold yourself to be a better you, the best you...

It is within that deeper journey into game/seduction that you have the choice of taking the red pill.

so basics are first. we learn how to approach, talk to girls and people in an attractive way that makes it enjoyable. we have to learn the specific details and techniques that it takes to land the girl. eventually with enough practice and dedication we land the girl. but the journey doesn't stop there if you aren't blind to see the path.

We keep learning. it's fun. we're having fun and enjoying the results and the experiences. we like it and it is positive and constructive. it helps make us a better person. A better you... A better you.

We then learn that not only should we learn the specific techniques but we should also have the "inner game", the mindset, and the thoughts of doing not living up to expectations. letting go of the results and enjoying the game for what it is and not worry about what people think. which could be the biggest and most crucial step in a lot of aspects of life and just so happens.

That's where you take the red pill if you so choose.

Don't worry what people think. a simple enough thought, but the thought will burrow into your mind and change your life forever if you let it. as the red pill does.

To explain what I mean unfortunately it will be a long process and we have to start from the beginning.

We are born, nothing to out of the ordinary there I suppose. Then between the ages of 1-5 you are raised by your family. maybe your family had specific customs like a strict religion or other specific customs which is even worse cause it basically indulges you with the blue pill from a very young age.

next is our primary school year. we are introduced into the world. we are taught basic thing we need to know in the world. reading, writing, spelling, and math as well as other things which is all good. looking back at it primary school isn't one of the bigger places that society feeds you the blue pill but it basically is conditioning you for it. that being said primary school is still a good thing to learn the basics of what you need to learn.

next, depending on where you live and how they go about it is middle school (ages 12-14). This is where it really conditions you and is the very early stages of your blue pill exposure.

you now are learning more things. which is good in itself. but they are more specific. you are learning advance math skills. learning sports. learning about specific topics like economics and advance sciences. They may even start to segregate you into different "groups". Advance math classes, jv and varsity sports teams, after school programs.

Next is the highschool years (ages 14-18) and in mind is where they force you to swallow the blue pill.

Now you start to learn about a whole lot of different things. not only school related but in your life as well. your old enough that you start to act out what you see and react to specific situations. this is where you are wiped out and erased from your true self. They teach you how you are going to have to behave and act once you are out of high school. that you will need a career and they teach you subjects you need to learn so that you can obtain that career. They preach to you that you need a career so that you can make enough money to live happily. they really seperate you into different groups. the ones that are really smart are now in top classes, and the lesser are in worst classes just to pass. you are exposed to how people and groups behave.

They teach you how to be part of society, and right there that is where you swallow it. You learn how to be part of society.... Not how you want to be part of it. you only think it is how you choose because they have been conditioning you almost your whole life up to that point.. no, they teach you how to be a part of society how they want you to be a part of society

now you either go into college, maybe go straight into your career or job, or maybe a different direction in life none the less you are now part of.... society....

society... the matrix... the system... it's all the same.

up to that point in your life you are filled with information society wanted you to know. the schools taught you things that you would need to contribute to society. what you watched on television you began to act. the fancy cars, clothes, and flashy things all the celebrities had you now wanted. everywhere you looked you were informed that materials were a necessity. you need money to get the materials you need. you need a high paying job to get the money you need. you get girls if you have money. etc.

all those things are what society wants you to believe. why? because the people at the very top benefit from it. just think all the fancy things you don't need you're spending all that money for happiness based on materials. materials that will lose there attraction. oh but you need money so you work and a high paying job. those high paying jobs are usually pretty beneficial to society. they make you work for some boss for long hours, years doing the things they want you to do because they want it all the while you paying taxes to the government and them benefiting from it.. they want you to buy the house because that is what people in society does. well guess what now you are paying mortgage, with interest. interest that the bank is collecting from your house loans, car loans, school loans. anything they can get from you or benefit from you.

next and more relevant to us is dating. through out our life in society we learn that we will have girlfriends yes, but eventually we are to get married. why? first off marriage was brought on only by the church and society in the first place. in the relevance of history, marriage is a pretty new concept if you consider how long the human species has been around. and if you look pre human history into ancestors like apes and monkeys there is no marriage just groups. in fact besides a couple species of birds humans are the only animals that mate for life.

now why would society want you to get married. simple so that you can settle down get into the routine that society wants you to be in and keep contributing. also they want you to produce children so that they can also one day contribute to society the same way you did.

Basically, if you look at a "normal" persons life. there overall routine, the things that make up there life is generated to help benefit other people. help benefit society.... the system.

I could keep going on specific details and examples (if interested you can PM me) but I think you get the point. a bit ago I wrote that I had to explain all those details so that I could explain how deep the though of what "don't worry what people think" and how that is when you take the red pill if you so choose to commit to.

If you look back at all those instances or any instance, situation or decision in your life or another persons life and were able to implement not worrying about what people thought. truly truly implement it true to your self that you didn't worry about what other people thought just think about how it would change things.

materials don't matter now. the only reason they mattered before was because they were so glamorized by everything around you as "must have" things. you needed them because everyone else wanted them or had them. now you don't care what people think so you don't care if they think differently about you because you don't have the materials. you don't care.

a house, a car, or anything else needing a loan. yes I do agree they are convenient. but not must haves. what if you didn't care what people thought if you didn't own anything that involved you getting a loan to get it. if you don't care about owning it now that means you won't be getting the loan. that means you won't be paying the bank all that interest.

what about your career. do you need all that money that society told you that you needed so you can get the things or do the things that they made you think you needed. no. you don't care anymore. you do need money to survive I agree but why not just survive and to do the things you truly want to do. not what society has programmed into you but what you truly deep down want now that you don't care I bet you're want list is a whole lot cheaper. well that's not good for those big companies that have to jobs that pay well that involve you working so hard for someone else.

this can keep going and going. just think. think of a world where no one cared what other people thought. that means they wouldn't be doing what society wants them to and this world would be completely different.

The simple act that we are taught in daygame. "don't care what others think" is a rabbit hole, it is THE RED PILL. and this hole is so deep you couldn't even imagine (because society doesn't want you to) but if you choose to you can go as deep as you want. the best part about it is if you do take the journey into "the rabbit hole" - "the red pill" then you begin to benefit from it. not everyone else, not society, not the government or who ever wants to control your life but YOU!

now you begin to live life up to your own expectations, how you want to live it, why you want to live it that why and do what you want.

and why.... because you don't care what other people think

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cn13UfHDm3I

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nUXNVzgE764

lovely suprise.

ok since the last time I wrote a post I have had a bit happened but I was just so busy I couldn't write up a post about it all

the first thing that comes to my mind is daygame. over the last few weeks I have been pretty much going out 4 days a week and even though I'm only going out for 2 hours at a time after work I can see the difference from the momentum of going out day after day, compared to just a couple days a week.

it seemed like just about everyday I had at least 1 interaction the went really well that ended in a number. I think I got about 4 numbers and a facebook in the last couple weeks. 1 of those girls I have already went on a date with. another girl we were planning a date but she said she was going to be busy for the next few weeks. I looked her up on facebook and found out she has a boyfriend but she still seems interested in meeting up so we'll see if it happens and the rest of the girls i'm still int he process of communication with them.

besides this week trading has been going pretty well. it seems like week after week I find improvements and I get more results so things are progressing good. this week at work is pretty slow because our generator took a crap on us so I havn't had any time to myself at work to practice trading.

the other thing that was really nice was that the girl from LA ended up flying back up here to see me. just for the weeknd this time. luckily it was right when our generator at work failed so we got a day off and I was actually able to spend the weeknd with her. We didn't have anything wild planned. just went to some good restraunts and had some romantic times as well as lots of sex. I think we fucked 3 times each day. yeah shes got a crazy sex drive. fun though. thanks to her as well this time helped me set another milestone with her being the first girl that I ever cummed on their face hahaha. she loved it though.

Also the big talk I was waiting for came up this time around and I was actually expecting it. basically it came down to the fact that she wants to get more serious with me and if not than she wants to move on which is understandable and I'm totally fine with the thought of it.

It got me thinking though and I have told myself before that if there was ever a girl that I was really interested in than I wouldn't mind getting into a relationship with her and I've told myself that I wouldn't mind dating the LA chick either if we were around each other more. So we're going to talk about it more but I think I might try the relationship with her this winter. I still want to travel and she loves traveling as well so im sure she would want to come to some places I travel to but I might not travel as much as I planned this winter and spend more time with her. if worst comes to worstand it doesnt work out than I just go back out daygaming and traveling so no big deal.

This week is probably going to be going pretty slow but that's the news as of late. so until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

Interested in learning how to trade?

I got a couple comments since I've started trading asking about Forex so I thought I'd do a post just on that for people who might be interested in getting into trading. I'll start off with a little story that first got me interested.

It was when I was coming back up to Alaska for my summer season after spending the winter in L.A. I decided to drive to seattle since I had made some friends and wanted to see a couple girls all of which I met there last year while living there. After arriving I set up some plans to meet up with a friend, his wife, and I brought along one of the girls I had met there. we met up for some drinks and a quick meal as we played catch up and talked about what we had been doing for the past year. That's when he told me about forex. we talked about it for 5 minutes and I was instantly interested. I was ending my time playing poker and was looking for something new and it seemed like it had presented itself. He also told me a story himself. He told me that one of his friends dad in florida is a brain surgeon and does work for NASA. He said one of his patients was an old guy and after a while they became friends and it wasn't too long until he met the brain surgeons son. apparently this old man had retired at the age of 26 at was a multi millionaire and had done so by trading in the forex market. He told the brain surgeons son to round up a team of 3 other people and he would put up the funds and teach them forex trading while he would also take a percentage of the profit as he was staking them. so my friend was contacted and that is where he is now learning to trade.

So since then I have been contacting my friend here or there and he has been giving me little helpful suggestions on what i should try. we aren't close close friends or anything so it doesn't feel right trying to ask him for all this information and not giving anything in return. but he has helped me sending me in the right direction.

To start of If someone was interested in learning how to trade the forex market I would suggest learning about it first. there are plenty of free training sites online. a lot of the trading brokers that you will be trading through have free training information as well. The main website I was directed to and I would suggest is called babypips.com they have a "school" you go through online which gives you a really good all around feel for the forex market and they delve into a lot of material. they also have a forum on the website and a blog as well as a couple other things. after you finish the school or during your learning. you can open a demo account at a broker site. there are tons of brokers out there and it is suggested to do your homework on the broker you choose as some might not be regulated or could be a little sketchy.

I oppted to go with the most popular broker because it was the easiest. the broker i am going through is called Oanda. some brokers have there own software that you trade on but most of them also have the software called meta trader 4 which is the most popular (MT4). once you've downloaded the software you choose to open a demo account and you can start making real trades with real time data on the real market just with fake money. by going through the baby pips school training you will learn a lot on how things should start out and you will skip some of the headaches of just jumping into it. If you're looking to trade on your phone there is an app that has the MT4 software called meta quotes I think they have an MT4 app and an MT5 app I have both but the MT5 has better currency pair options to choose from so I trade on that mostly.

with all that said trading can be really frustrating at times and really fun. to give you an Idea, I just started demo trading a month ago and I told myself I would give myself 2 years to try and become profitable. there was a statistic thrown out in the forums frequently that says 95% of traders are not winning traders. If anyone plays poker and are a winning player then you will know the thoughts behind that as most players are not winning players and it takes time to be a winning player. If you think trading is a easy way to get rich than you are wrong. I can directly relate it with poker and just like poker it is a slow steady grind of ups and downs but the overall direction is up.

I'm in no position to try and give anyone tips at the moment because I have just began myself and i'm trying to learn and become successful but if anyone needs more direction on getting started or something along those lines than I would be glad to help.

so until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

getting the ball back rolling

Alright so this week has went by pretty fast but nothing really exciting to report other than some future plans going on and my intentions for the next little while.

So work is the same, not a whole lot going on there same routine working 12 hours a day. at the moment we are working 7 days a week with every 3rd sunday off and it could very well stay that way until the end of the season. next sunday will be the next day off so i'm looking forward to that.

One thing I have been doing at work which I shouldn't be doing is practicing my trading on my phone. I found an app that is the same software I trade with on my computer but just for the phone. I'm still just demo trading but since i'm working 12 hours a day the time I have off after work is pretty limited and I would only have a small amount of time to practice each week.

Sneakily demo trading at work is giving me a lot of practice and so far it is going productively. basically over the last month I've found out how I want to trade and every thing that involves that. I've also figured out the bankroll requirements I would need to be able to make the kind of money that I want to make, which isn't much. if I can net 150$-200$ average a day I would be more than happy or even just netting 45-50k a year would be enough to make me happy.

All that seems that is left to do is practice practice practice. which I will be doing.....at work lol. I plan to keep practicing demo trading for the rest of the season and if I feel confident and profitable than I will deposit and start trading for real. If not than I will keep practicing until I do prove that I am profitable.

A couple concepts that I really like about trading so far is that you can demo trade (practice) with the real software, real indicators, real information and news releases. on real time charts. Basically you're practicing trading in the real time market just with fake money so when the time comes to switch over it isn't something you're going to be surprised about.

Another thing that really draws me to trading is how much money you can trade. not necessarily the amount of money you can trade but  the fact that your returns or how much you make depends on how much you risk. the market will always be the market it just depends on how much you risk. That is one thing about poker that I didn't like. if your bankroll increased and it was time to move up in stakes to start making more money that ment facing harder and harder compitetion the more you move up. which has a lot of complications in its self.  with forex if you are a proven profitable trader all that matters is how much you are putting down to determine how much you get back you dont have to worry about the market getting "harder" while you move up in stakes..

daygame has been pretty slow but pretty much expected it from alaska. I went out this weeknd trying to get things moving along after having the girl from LA come see me. It was a little difficult finding approachable girls but I found a few although I did have to push myself to approach but it was good for me. The weather is nice right now and should be for the next week so I'm actually planning on doing daygame through out the whole week which I havn't done up here. it will be slow and grueling and I don't expect much but I'm mainly doing it just to get the momentum going.

besides that I figured out the main places in europe I plan on going to this winter. which I'm really excited for. 11 cities in 11 different countries so far. If i get recommendations from people to check out other places then I will but for now I have my list. I also just got done with a skype date with the LA girl and she was talking about meeting up and going to south america for a little bit before I head over to europe so we'll see if that comes about. other than that. things are going smooth. just a little over 3 more months and the big adventure starts. so until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

so much fun! plus lay reports.

Ok I know it has been a little while but so much stuff has happened I literally haven't had time to update.

The last I left off I believe was just a few days before the girl from LA I was seeing before I left there was about to arrive for 10 days. I had a lot of things planned for us to do and I was also able to take 5 days off from work which really helped and I needed a little time away from work anyways.

So the first day she arrived I was actually working and when I came back to my place there she was sitting in my bed wearing a little nighty. we both smiled and were instantly in the moment. It didn't take long before I had her bent over and had our emotions swirling with lust and attraction.

This girl is 31 and has a higher sex drive than me. The whole time we were here She probably initiated sex 75% of the time. every day we had sex at least twice a day. So there isn't really a need to talk about a specific lay but the sex was great. very passionate, aggressive, soft, sensual, hard, filled with emotions. a whole mix of everything. we loved every minute of it, but if I had to choose a single best time it would have had to have been when we went camping and things got really intense which involved me shoving her into the tent and us going wild ;)

We also did a bunch of other things besides just great sex lol. We went to a couple really fancy resturants one of which I had a whole bottle of wine and we stayed at the hotel for the night which was really enjoyable and at the foot of the mountain. we went hiking, camping at the foot of a glacier that we hiked around. went on a really long coastal bike ride. Just a whole lot of Alaskan things and up to that point it was the most fun Iv'e had in AK this summer and probably will be until I leave. we both really had an awesome time and in those short 10 days our connection really grew.

We both really really like each other, and if I was in the same place as her I would make her my girlfriend for however long the spark stayed alive. me and her have got a lot in common and she's got a lot of things that I look for in a girl. to tell you the truth I kind of wish I was with her but as for now it isn't so. The only downside to her is that her biological clock is ticking and we actually talked about it. I'm not interested in marriage with anyone, and she said she could live with out getting married if it came to it, but she said she wanted kids. it actaully caused a little bit of a stir but it settled down a little later. We both really really like each other but I think it will eventually get to a point that we will have to go our seperate ways because she will want to settle down and I wont. which is understandable and ok. for now we are enjoying each other for as long as it lasts and the next time will be about mid november when I go to see her in LA before I travel europe.

On the camping trip I tried some mushroom cookies that she made. Part of this year but mainly this winter is to really try to enjoy and experience life and when she asked me if I wanted to try mushrooms before she came up. I said yes (after researching it). I'm ok with the idea of experimenting with natural drugs, mainly plants. but I wouldn't ever touch synthetic drugs. To tell you the truth the mushroom trip was different than I expected but It was good. It felt like the body sensation you get when you are pretty buzzed from alcohol just before you get really drunk, but I felt really really exhausted when I was laying down which was most of the time. when I would stand up I would almost feel drunk but totally cohearant. we laid next to the fire pretty much most of the time which was cool and I kind of just dazed off into it playing with it with a stick. It was actually a pretty enjoyable experience. It wasn't like how it is portrayed as you seeing things and totally triping out. maybe different mushrooms are like that and it depends on how much you take but this expreince was really cool and I would take them again in the future if the opportunity was right.

After she left it was a little sad but things gotta keep moving on. Just 10 days away from my normal routines and It has taken me just about the same time to catch back up with everything. Don't get me wrong though I loved every moment of it and it was well worth everything. 2 days after she left I had a date planned with a 18 year old russian girl from the online dating site. I know what you're probably thinking. for someone who was so into a girl you sure aren't showing any respect. Well to me I do have that voice in the back of my head. also We aren't bf and gf. I do respect her but that doesn't mean that I need to take myself off the market just because I'm casually seeing someone who lives in another state.

The russian girl wasn't as hot as I thought she was and the few girls I went on dates with from the online site turned out the same as well. I'm actually losing a lot of interest in the online dating and actually just prefer going out and meeting them myself. None the less me and the russian got along fine. We went to a few places around downtown anchorage and I was actually going to try and lay her that day because she lived about 300 miles away and was just visiting for a week. the date went smooth and I got her back to my room with no hesitation really. I tried escalating pretty fast but all I got was some intense make out sessions. I'm still working on my first date lays. It turned out she had brothers she was visiting and was trying to live here so she was came the to try to find a job. we ended up setting up another date a couple days later and went go kart racing which was fun. got smoothies, headed back to my place where I began escalating again. russians are their own breed. they will test  you and test you. say no no no but if you keep persisting and not showing and fear and show your manly "you dont phase me" attitude then you break down their shield and they attack you with their extreme sexual desire.

Things started to get really heated as I would take 2 steps foreward and have to take one back. I could have done this all the way to sex but I already decided before the second date that I was growing tired of her. After dealing with a bit of russians I actually don't really care for their personalities too much. they look really good, have the accent and everything like that but they lack a lot of other things.

well I must have escalated enough with her because she began to get aggressive with her sexual side and began to rub and kiss all over me. my clothes came off and she was giving me a blow job. for an 18 year old she knew what she was doing and this was the first blow job that ever made me cum... and she swallowed, pretty hot. afterwards we laid together and then she gave me a back massage. man, I was almost starting to reconsider her haha. she left a little bit after that and we've texted a couple times but i've kept it short. I wasn't trying to use her and if nothing would have happend i would have been fine with it but I'm just not into her so unless i get desperate or something or feel lonely than I probably wont be seeing her any more.

other than that i've been spending the last week trying to catch up on everything that I have been getting behind on. I've also been doing my demo trading (while at work on my phone :p ) things are going good and i'm learning but I can tell it will be a while before I start to get profitable if at all. turns out trading is simple but oh so complex. other than that life is good for the most part. so until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

A little break for some fun

Finally I get to have some fun for a little while. we've pretty much been working non stop for the last month 12 hours a day and we are getting 2 days off on the 4th and 5th. One of the girls I was seeing in LA is actually coming up to see me for 10 days so I requested another 3 days off to go along with that so we could spend time together which I'm really looking forward to.

Up until this point it has mainly been just work. I've finished studying the forex material and started demo trading which I am actually really liking. It is going to be a while before I can put a lot of effort into it since i'm working so much but im looking forward to it. I have done some daygame on the weeknds  but nothing solid yet. I totally blew it with the 18 year old in the last couple posts. she flaked on one of our dates and I told her that I didnt want to waste my time on flakey people and to get a hold of me when she plans something out, and I've never heard from her again..... wierd. Lesson learned though, better to be unreactionary  in those situations. there is a russian girl that lives pretty far away that I met on the online dating site that is coming to the city to see her family and we have it planned to meet up in about 2 weeks so we'll see if that goes through, so far she seems keen to it.

The big news is my girl from LA that is coming. This girl I actually really like, and if I was more stationary then I would totally make her my girlfriend for a while but it's not going to happen at this stage in my life. We have a lot of stuff planned which includes hiking, camping, wining and dining and some other activities. as will as a lot of great sex.

When I was seeing her in LA she was a really good sex partner and is pretty exciting. She does pole dancing classes for cardio which is pretty sexy in itself and has an animalistic sex drive when you release it. so I'm really looking forward to it.

This post is actually going to be pretty short just because of the minimal things that have went on in life but the next post will be filled with goodies. so until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned. :)

Summer time fun.

This last week was actually pretty interesting and had a lot of different things going on about it.

So to start the week we were only working 8 hours a day instead of the usual 12 hours because things got a little slow. so on a couple of the days off I went freeboarding  which was awesome. The weather has been great for once in Alaskas past summers history. The only bad thing about Freeboarding is if you don't go with a friend who can drive you back up the hill then you have to hike which gets tiring  after a while.

The next fun thing was that I went on a date with the 18 year old that I approached in my last post. She actually turned out to be kind of an air head/ ditz but she is cute and so far is enjoyable. The date went pretty smooth and felt very natural. I'm not sure if it is because I was plenty older than her or not but I just felt so much more of a leader in the power role then when I have went on dates with girls who were older than me.

So we had it planned to go to a dessert shop and then get Italian sodas which we did. basically doing some basic chit chat getting to know you stuff. we walked around after that since it was so nice outside. the whole time I was running my hand down her back or the back of her neck. grabbing her shoulders  or hugging her. It was a pretty physically escalated date and it all felt pretty natural.

After walking around I lead her to my place and suggested we go up and listen to music which she agreed to. we laid on my bed and talked for a bit before she asked for a kiss. We made out for a bit but during the whole date her roomate was blowing up her phone trying to get her home to take care of her animals so there was pressure for her to leave. We made out for a bit before she needed to get back. I was pretty confident that I would see her again so I didn't push for the lay.

I don't think I will make this girl my summer girlfriend but she is a nice to have fun with. I actually have a date planned with her tomorrow so we'll see where it leads to.

Since I finished studying the forex material I had been trying to find a broker site that I wanted to trade through which was proving difficult. It is like trying to find the pokerstars but there are so many ultimatebet.coms out there. I did find a broker site that I think is pretty decent so I downloaded the software. I haven't started demo trading yet but I think I will by next week. now that I'm actually about to start demo trading it's almost like I have to relearn everything I just read but oh well.

At the end of the week work picked up and we were in a new area which involved us putting in 14 hour days so there was really room for anything after work. this next week we are back to our normal 12 hours but we will be back to the 14 hour days in probably a couple weeks.

Things are going good though, my LA girl will be here in about 10 days and I'm starting to see some results from being back in Alaska so it's all moving along. doesn't mean I want to be here though haha.

so  until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

Fake out!

Finally I have some details to post about. I think my last post was about 2.5 weeks ago when I rolled my ankle from freeboarding. Since then after the couple days I had off to heal I went back to work but on the 6pm to 6am shift until the next day off and that took 2 weeks which was this weeknd. I really didn't have anything to post in that time because All I was doing was working and studying the forex material because I was getting off at 6am and there wasn't really anything to do at that time of day.

Finally we had a day off though and I took advantage of it and have some details to share so we'll start on friday. After work on friday I went out to do some daygame for a couple hours which went decent. I did about 6 or 7 approaches and got a number from a pretty cute girl that looked 18-20 since it was friday and she said she was busy this weekend I haven't texted her yet but I plan on texting her tonight. On a side note that is kind of the downside to getting numbers on friday and saturday as you usually should wait til atleast sunday to text them to make sure you don't come off as a guy who doesn't have a life and would rather text girls on the weeknd the be doing other things which in those couple days the attraction from the first interaction can fade causing more flakes :(

my last approach of the day I ended up getting a number from a tourist girl that is in town for a week visiting a friend. That time although it was friday I did text her that same day because she was only in town for a week and theres no point in wasting time if you are on a time limit. she did text back but I was waiting for tonight to text her again. both the above girls I feel are a 50/50 chance


On saturday we actually got off a little early so I went home an caught a little sleep and then went back out for some more daygame. I did about 8-10 approaches with my last approach being a cute 18 year old girl in the mall. she had long brown hair, blue eyes. a nose piercing and a vibe about her that jsut insisted she was naughty. the interaction turned out to be a very chemistry filled interaction but has a twist to it

She was pretty much a "green" light. I was probably her perfect architype so as long as I didn't do something wrong then things were going to turn out ok.

The initial interaction went really well, she was loving it from the start. giving me plenty of compliments and putting in a lot of investment into the conversation. about 5 minutes in I say I want a frozen yogurt and you are coming with me which she agrees and I was 99% sure she would have.

On the instant date there was plenty of electricity. the whole vibe was just filled with loads of unspoken sexual spikes. usually on instant dates I keep the kino to a very minimum but with her it felt very natural and she was warm to it. It was one of those sets where the vibe between both of you is so right that you could have went to the bathroom right there and fucked.

After the instant date we walked for a little bit and I was actually trying to land a same day lay with her as I lived only 2 blocks away (we were in a mall) I suggested a bounce but she said her ride was going to be there in 5 minutes. She insisted that I give her my number and insisted on meeting the very next day before she had to work, which she actually works about 3 blocks from where I live. I take her number and she wanted a hug so we hugged. there was plenty of times I thought about kissing her which would have went fine but I wanted to try and land her the next day or in the future so I passed on the kiss as it could create buyers remorse.

I text her a couple hours later which she responds pretty quickly. we exchange about 4 or 5 texts pretty much just setting up the date details for the next day which she agreed to.

the next day comes and I send a feeler text about an hour before the date saying " hey i'm probably going to be about 10 minutes late" but no response. The date was actually planned a few blocks from where I live so I figured if she does flake it isn't a big deal and I can just go do some day game. the time comes around and shes a no show so I wait about 20 minutes longer and then go off to do more daygame.

and thats where im at right now.  To me I feel like she is trying to play hard to get because I basically had her in the palm of my hand the day before. but there could always be those cases where something did come up she had to attend to or something like that.

I'm thinking of waiting a couple days and then sending her a text that says. "tisk tisk, you're going to need to go to time out for that one "  and if she doesnt respond to that one then I will wait about a week and send her another ping text.

So those are the daygame adventures of this weeknd, we'll see how those two numbers turn out. also a girl who lives pretty far away that I met on the online dating site is coming down in a couple weeks and seems keen to meeting up so we'll see if she flakes or not. also One of my friends said one of his friends that is a girl said that I sound like a good match for her so if we ever plan something out I might go on my first blind date and in 3 weeks The dancing with the stars girl from LA will be here to stay with me for 10 days so i'm really looking foreward to that.

besides that I actually just finished studying all my forex training material. so the next step is to do some research on what broker sites software I want to use and then start to demo trade which i'm really excited to do and might dip my toes into it next week. so until next time cosmonauts stay tuned :)