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there have been a couple events that have taken place since the last post that are a bit interesting so here goes.

 so the main two events that happened this week have taken place in the life category. so in my last post i mentioned that i cut it off with the girl i was seeing, well after a few days of not talking we ended up seeing each other again to talk about everything and welllll i guess im going to be a dad!.... no just kidding haha. we did decide to keep seeing each other and its mainly from what ive come to realize. ive only been running pickup for a year and ive only really got into it this last 6 months and put a lot of effort into day game so its still relatively new to me. that being said this is my first "relationship" that im doing that im not trying to make it anything serious come out of it so thats new to me too. when i started game i had this thought that i could have a short term relationship and just not have any emotional attachment to the girls but still be able to appreciate and enjoy their company. well after this week i was a little enlightened.

 to me you can have three basic types of relationships. really short term,  casual short term and long term.  a really short term relationship would be like a 1 night stand or maybe something that didnt last more than a month. a casual short term for me is somthing between 1 and 6 months and long term would be anything more than 6 months. i knew even before i got into game that i didnt want to do a long term realtionship again. maybe in the future but not anytime soon. short short term relationships are fine but i like being able to connect with people and having a new girl every month isnt really all it would be cracked up to be. i do however like the thought of having a short term casual relationship. going into this i thought that i could leave all attachment out of the equation but then realized that if i want to do a short term casual relationship than emotions will get envolved and there will be some form of attachment which ive come to accept and is the main reason why me and the girl have continued to see each other.

i know that was a whole lot of nonsense but i had to kind of explain myself. the good thing about my lifestyle is that i pretty much move out of state every 6 months so it gives me an "excuse" to have a short term casual relationship, and really im only with girls who are ok with the idea of it.

now for the second main event of the week which was my friends 21st bday. his actual bday was on wednesday and we had 4 friends go out and get food and order some drinks and had a good time but it was saturday night where all the action took place. so me my friend who turned 21 and another friend all went out for the night on the town and started kicking back the drinks. we pretty much just stuck with jagger the whole night. after a couple hours my friend whos bday it is, was starting to feel pretty good. he hardly ever drinks but when he does he bassically gets so out of line that its funny to watch. anyway we were all getting loose and having a good time.

the girl im seeing came out with a friend and we hung out for a little bit and then somwhere along the line we crossed the point of no return. my friend got to that ignorant stage of drinking and i became the babysitter. that was all in the plans though we were basically trying to make him not be able to remember the night. we bounced to like 4 or 5 different clubs and just did a whole lot of whacky ignorant things and basically just had a really fun night. we got back to my place at 5am at which point i had been up for 30 hours and then we just passed out. right now im actually sitting infront of my friend as he lays passed out on my couch. hahah good times.

now for the monthly recap of my pickup results. so the beginning was really slow for pickup. i had some things i had to get done and  then ended up getting my tonsils taken out. about 3/4s of the way through the month i had some days off and a festival was going on downtown and i busted out a lot of approaches. this last weeknd was reallly lame though. i went out and was really out of state and just not in the mood to do any daygame and only did 1 approach :( but for the month i was able to get 27 approaches done. not too bad seeing how things went and actually with my work schedule i think anything near 25 approaches is decent. this winter i should be able to do like 60-75 a month though. i did see an increase in my numbers to approaches ratio. even though it was only over 27 approaches i got 5 numbers which was pretty close to 20%. where i would usually only get the number about 10% of the time. im still working on my game after getting the number so definitely still trying and needing to improve. the first girl whos number i got was a really sweet nice and young girl and she actually texted me first. the only thing was that she was so nice and innocent i would feel bad introducing her into my life and then not going anywhere with it cause she was gf material. the next girl i really connected with as well but she ended up having a kid so i cut that out too. the next 3 were just flakes. so i didnt sleep with anyone either so no stats for that. i am still sleeping with the chick im seeing just not anyone new. 

you might also ask. "why do you still do pickup if youre seeing someone thats so disrespectful". my  view is that im still trying to improve my life and being able to talk with and attract females so im fine with the idea of doing approaches and dont think its reallya bad thing to be sociable. however im not trying to go out and have sex with new women now that im seeing this girl but if somthing came up i dont think i should limit myself if theres somthing better for me. its a little fucked up but if i was in a "committed" relationship, then i wouldnt do any of this.

last but not least is poker. now this is pretty much where it has just been pretty much an angle upwards. being that i had 2 weeks off from work for my tonsils to recover it gave me plenty of time to play poker. the only bad thing is that my hem2 kept getting error codes and i had to delete everything twice so i lost about 25k hands worth of data. not that big of a deal but it messed up my sweet looking graph for the month. i was also able to land rake back to at 35% so thats just a little extra money back. i won a couple sign up bonuses which added up to like 20$. so with everything said and done im up 320$ for the month or 32 buyins at 10nl. i was up to 350$ but my last session sucked and lost a few buyins. i dont know exactly how many hands i played but i think its somewhere between 40-45k so its ok volume for merge

i like how things are going and i can play 12 tables comfortably whenever they are available. with me back working 12 hours a day 6 days a week i wont have a whole lot of time again but i think 25k hands a month is doable. also i dont see myself losing at 10nl and i would be confident saying im sure i can beat 25nl. but im just gonna grind 10nl for the summer and move to florida and then ill step up to 25nl just to keep the mind fresh and practice online while i kill it in the live games. ohhh man i cant wait. so heres the graph for the last 18k hands

it obviously doesnt show the other 20-25k hands i played before hem2 crapped out and the other 260$ of profit but ehhh no biggie. anyway i know this was really long and probablly mundane and boring but i had a lot of shit to talk about and had to do the whole month recap. things are going good though and just 4 more months till florida baby! until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)