unimpressed

alright to keep it simple, this week was kind of a let down. i had some plans set out and they pretty much all went busto so heres how it went

poker turned out crappy for what i did play. i ended up running a little bad and from what i remember it was mostly just coolers and slightly bad play but not much. i still feel like im playing decently but im not playing my A game. none the less it still should be enough to beat 10nl on merge. if it wasnt for rakeback  i would be stuck for the month but ive earned like 45$ in rakeback so im sitting up like 25$ in profit for this month. i still have a couple days left to make a little more. fingers crossed that i dont lose and have my first losing month in 2 years. ill have the graph up on the next post.

daygame was just horrible this weeknd. friday i went out after work for 2 hours and approached 2 girls which wasnt a bad thing for a friday during the day but i only talked to one of the girls for like 5 minutes before i got a boyfriend rejection from her. although i was more persistent in the conversation which was one thing i was working on so that was probably the only positive thing this weeknd. saturday there was an airforce air show going on where they let you on the military base and you can check out all the air crafts and they have a stunt team come up and do jet stunts and stuff like that. the actual show was pretty cool but ive seen it a few times and i was pretty much there for the girls. only one slight problem. i hardly saw any approachable girls. now i wish i could make this up, but i doubt that even 1% of the girls there were approachable. it just made me remember one of the main reasons i hate alaska. anyways i did approach 4 girls 3 of which gave me bf rejections instantly. the one girl that didnt was actually probablly the hottest girl that i saw there. she had a nice big ass with a sexy body and she was blonde wearing yoga pants.

just one of those girls when you see you go GOT DAMN! anyways i approached her but she didnt hook and kept walking. in the next few weeks or maybe all of next month im going to try and switch it up a little bit with my opener and see what kind of different results i get. basically to see if i get more girls to hook right off the opener more or not, just mixing it up a little bit.

life seemed alright though just got back into the work routine after jumping around shifts a little bit. were back to working 6 days a week 12 hours a day though so we'll see how long that goes for. hopefully till the end of season cause i love me some money. the air show was cool as i already stated besides the lack of the attractive female genitalia. the last interesting subject in the life section this week was the girl ive been seeing. so today i actually saw her and we hung out a for a bit. she basically told me how shes getting more attached to me and falling for me and stuff like that. i expected this and was waiting for this. the fact is that im getting attached to her too. i like us being together and everything is going great but im still going to keep it a summer relationship and i told her that. im not leading her on and im not using her and told her that. i also told her i didnt want her to have this big thought that if she waits for me that we will be together in the end and she had mixed thoughts about that. in the end i wont fall in love with this girl cause i dont want that in my life anytime soon which i also made sure she knew about. it sounds a little fake like i can just turn love on or off but for me as a person i can resist actually feeling the "emotions" of love if i dont want to. which is now.

ive been totally honest with her this whole time and tell her everything so that i dont lead her on and shes still sticking around so we'll see how long it goes. in the end theres gonna be a break up. either when i leave to florida or before that. i think she might just be crazy enough to want to wait for me though   : /

so thats how things have gone so far this week a little mehhh for the most part and a little ughhhh with the females but nothing nobody cant handle. lets pray to the poker gods for a winning last 2 sessions and to the daygame goddesses for a plentiful harvest lol. anyway untill next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)