Monday, February 11, 2013

self enjoyment.

i think i have finally figured some things out about how to go about things in my life this week unfortunitley that is about all the good news there is.

ill get to the opening sentence in a minute after i recap the week. so poker was relatively slow this week. i only played 3 days the first day i won 1300, the second day i played a lapc tournament for 340 and cashed for 640 and the last day i played i lost 800.

the lapc tournament was a pretty decent tournament. it attracted 240 players. you start with 20k in chips and the first 8 levels are 30 minutes and then after that the levels are 40 minutes. things went pretty normal for me for the first like 4-5 hours and then my stack was at about 40bbs when this hand happend.

there were 3 limpers and it got to me in the bb with A5 off and i check. the board comes  2 3 6 rainbow. sb checks and i bet like half pot. next guy to act raises and the other players fold. to me i felt like this guy either had a medium over pair or some kind of draw or nothing. i didnt see why he would rais a realy strong hand on a board like that with two players that could also contribut money if he were to have a big hand. i felt like if i shoved then it would be super hard for him to call and i would take down a decent pot a lot of the time. i shoved and he called and showed 22. turn was a blank and the river was a 4 giving me the straight.

so i got very lucky there. i was also now in pretty good standings to go deep in the tourney. with about 70 players left. i was able to build my stack up to 200k over the next 5 hours and made it to the money. the bubble was at 27th. there were 23 players left when this hand happend. everyone folded to me on the button with K9 suited. i min raise and the sb calls. the bb looks at my raise, looks at the small blind and anounces raise and raises it to 40k. we had just got redrawn at this table and i havnt seen him 3 bet or play harldy any hands since we started the table but i felt like this was a move. i also had blockers and again felt like if i raised i could get him to lay down a lot of hands. i shoved all in for 180k sb folded and he thought for a little bit before calling with AQ off. i didnt improve and i busted out in 23rd. looking back at the hand im fine with my play even though he didnt play that many hands since we started the table i felt like he was the type to make a squeeze in that spot and figured he was sucks that i was wrong but im fine with my play. the thing that i should have done was only raised it to about 110k and if he shipped i could have folded and still been in the tourney. the last thing is that i have played about 5 tourneys so far this winter and in each tourney i have made a big move like the ones i talked about in every tourney. and about 4 out of the 5 tourneys i ran into aces twices and the other times made hands. so i think i am making moves at the wrong times and should be more cautious about it but that is also probably the last tourney i will be playing so i dont think ill be able to put the theory to use.

daygame this week was just horrible. i wanted to go out friday but i was just so out of it and unsocial. at the end of the day i found i was starting to get a bit of a head cold. saturday i had full effects of the cold and i tried to go out but i was just so out of state that i couldnt do it. sunday i was feeling better but still anti social. over the whole 3 days i did 4 approaches which was horrible. i was really wanting to put in some decent effort this weeknd but its so har to change your mentality if youre just not feeling social. which led me to a realization with poker and daygame.

i listen to a daygame podcast about once a week. they said something on there that made me think. i heard them talk about it before but i never really processed it. they said it doesnt matter about the results. you should be focusing on having a good time, learning, and enjoying the moment and the results will come. although i have done daygame like that a little bit i was still pretty results oriented. it also made me think about poker.

the past couple of years i never really had any specific expectations from poker. i was just learning the game and trying to get good at it, i was enjoying the process even though it was frustrating at times and i was making money. this year was different. this year i put a lot of weight on trying to achieve specific goals and i had a lot of expectations. it just made me realize it took the fun out of it. now all i was worried about is how much closer to my goal do i need to get and all these other thoughts. it just made me think that expectations are a good factor for being let down. so today i played and i didnt care about winning or losing i just played and tried to play my best and it was enjoyable. so with daygame and poker i am going to try and take that route and get back to the enjoyment of the games instead of the expectations. i know its easier said than done but its the better way to do them.

thats about all there is. im feeling better this week and not so anti social or depressed so hopefully it will stay that way and i can put in a lot of effort for the rest of the week. until next time. stay tuned cosmonauts

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