a rough start with a glimmer of hope

so i dont think this post will be all that long but ill give you guys the low down on how things have been going. when we last left off i told you guys about me getting back into the online poker scene. well within that first few sessions i was down 9 buy ins. that was kinda expected in my mind. i havnt played online in a little over a year and anytime i come back from not playing poker theres usually a little bit of a downswing. well i was able to over come that and won about 8 buy ins back. after that i started playing pretty loose and playing a lot of spots where i had very little equity if any at all especially at 10nl where its mostly about getting value i also did run a little bad so combine those two things and its never good. so to make it short i lost about 7 buyins and im sitting down 8 buyins so far since ive started back up. its all good though, its kinda all coming back to me and how i used to play that would make me profitable in the games before. so this next week im sure unless variance has other plans that i will have better results. i might be able to get positive for the month but we will see.

so i have holdem manager 2 and if you guys havnt got it yet you guys are missing out. there are so many features to it. one that i noticed straight away was its auto note taking system which was sweet. unfortunitley i seriously only have like 2 hours after work to play when i do play so i havnt spent the time seriously trying to figure hem2 out yet but when i get the time i will. now for life and pickup. so pretty much same thing with life. not a whole lot is going on. ive been working everyday since i started except for one. i do have sunday and monday off though which is the reason im able to write this post. that chick that i talked about in the last post is still around. things are starting to get more solid. were like a relationship without being in a relationship which is exactly what i wanted to find. however if for some reason things got more clingy than i would have to depart that ship, besides that tonight me and her are going out on the town and i think she might bring some of her friends and than shes gonna stay the night at my place. than sunday we are gonna go to her place and "spend the day together" and shes going to cook me dinner. i guess im running good in that aspect of life. pickup has got some goods and bads to it as well. last week was just horrible for game and i didnt get any results. this weeknd went alright. yesterday i did 3 approaches all of which werent logistically perfect. one girl did stand out though. she had pink high heels and a mini skirt with a pink top and her ass basically told me that i needed to fuck her. i totally thaught she was a stripper but after talking to her i found out she was married and in the army which was crazy wierd but whatever so yeah no real results yesterday. today i just got back in from running game for about 4 hours. i did 4 approaches and i was able to get 1 number. i think this chick is into me but i have a couple of problems. the first one is that i really wasnt able to accomplish much with the conversation and pretty much only generated a lot of attraction. the second is the main thing and that is that she works in the mall. the problem with that is its like " shiting where you eat" so anytime she sees me there it my blow my cover or create some complications. i havnt texted her yet so we'll so how it goes and ill report back. oh i forgot to mention about the 15 year old that hit on me yesterday lol. i guess yesterday wasnt a total miss haha. so yeah i was walking and there was a group of like 5 teenage girls and one girl comes up to me and tells me that her friend wanted her to give her number to me and handed me a piece of paper. i looked at it and went over to the girl and talked to her for like 5 minutes i knew she was young but if she was 18 it would have been a bit different. needless to say i didnt text her. so yeah those are the highlights since the last post. maybe i can man up and make a profit in poker if not ill do what i usually do and just cry untill things go better. so untill next time cosmonauts. stay tuned :)