Sunday, July 21, 2013

getting the ball back rolling

Alright so this week has went by pretty fast but nothing really exciting to report other than some future plans going on and my intentions for the next little while.

So work is the same, not a whole lot going on there same routine working 12 hours a day. at the moment we are working 7 days a week with every 3rd sunday off and it could very well stay that way until the end of the season. next sunday will be the next day off so i'm looking forward to that.

One thing I have been doing at work which I shouldn't be doing is practicing my trading on my phone. I found an app that is the same software I trade with on my computer but just for the phone. I'm still just demo trading but since i'm working 12 hours a day the time I have off after work is pretty limited and I would only have a small amount of time to practice each week.

Sneakily demo trading at work is giving me a lot of practice and so far it is going productively. basically over the last month I've found out how I want to trade and every thing that involves that. I've also figured out the bankroll requirements I would need to be able to make the kind of money that I want to make, which isn't much. if I can net 150$-200$ average a day I would be more than happy or even just netting 45-50k a year would be enough to make me happy.

All that seems that is left to do is practice practice practice. which I will be doing.....at work lol. I plan to keep practicing demo trading for the rest of the season and if I feel confident and profitable than I will deposit and start trading for real. If not than I will keep practicing until I do prove that I am profitable.

A couple concepts that I really like about trading so far is that you can demo trade (practice) with the real software, real indicators, real information and news releases. on real time charts. Basically you're practicing trading in the real time market just with fake money so when the time comes to switch over it isn't something you're going to be surprised about.

Another thing that really draws me to trading is how much money you can trade. not necessarily the amount of money you can trade but  the fact that your returns or how much you make depends on how much you risk. the market will always be the market it just depends on how much you risk. That is one thing about poker that I didn't like. if your bankroll increased and it was time to move up in stakes to start making more money that ment facing harder and harder compitetion the more you move up. which has a lot of complications in its self.  with forex if you are a proven profitable trader all that matters is how much you are putting down to determine how much you get back you dont have to worry about the market getting "harder" while you move up in stakes..

daygame has been pretty slow but pretty much expected it from alaska. I went out this weeknd trying to get things moving along after having the girl from LA come see me. It was a little difficult finding approachable girls but I found a few although I did have to push myself to approach but it was good for me. The weather is nice right now and should be for the next week so I'm actually planning on doing daygame through out the whole week which I havn't done up here. it will be slow and grueling and I don't expect much but I'm mainly doing it just to get the momentum going.

besides that I figured out the main places in europe I plan on going to this winter. which I'm really excited for. 11 cities in 11 different countries so far. If i get recommendations from people to check out other places then I will but for now I have my list. I also just got done with a skype date with the LA girl and she was talking about meeting up and going to south america for a little bit before I head over to europe so we'll see if that comes about. other than that. things are going smooth. just a little over 3 more months and the big adventure starts. so until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

so much fun! plus lay reports.

Ok I know it has been a little while but so much stuff has happened I literally haven't had time to update.

The last I left off I believe was just a few days before the girl from LA I was seeing before I left there was about to arrive for 10 days. I had a lot of things planned for us to do and I was also able to take 5 days off from work which really helped and I needed a little time away from work anyways.

So the first day she arrived I was actually working and when I came back to my place there she was sitting in my bed wearing a little nighty. we both smiled and were instantly in the moment. It didn't take long before I had her bent over and had our emotions swirling with lust and attraction.

This girl is 31 and has a higher sex drive than me. The whole time we were here She probably initiated sex 75% of the time. every day we had sex at least twice a day. So there isn't really a need to talk about a specific lay but the sex was great. very passionate, aggressive, soft, sensual, hard, filled with emotions. a whole mix of everything. we loved every minute of it, but if I had to choose a single best time it would have had to have been when we went camping and things got really intense which involved me shoving her into the tent and us going wild ;)


We also did a bunch of other things besides just great sex lol. We went to a couple really fancy resturants one of which I had a whole bottle of wine and we stayed at the hotel for the night which was really enjoyable and at the foot of the mountain. we went hiking, camping at the foot of a glacier that we hiked around. went on a really long coastal bike ride. Just a whole lot of Alaskan things and up to that point it was the most fun Iv'e had in AK this summer and probably will be until I leave. we both really had an awesome time and in those short 10 days our connection really grew.

We both really really like each other, and if I was in the same place as her I would make her my girlfriend for however long the spark stayed alive. me and her have got a lot in common and she's got a lot of things that I look for in a girl. to tell you the truth I kind of wish I was with her but as for now it isn't so. The only downside to her is that her biological clock is ticking and we actually talked about it. I'm not interested in marriage with anyone, and she said she could live with out getting married if it came to it, but she said she wanted kids. it actaully caused a little bit of a stir but it settled down a little later. We both really really like each other but I think it will eventually get to a point that we will have to go our seperate ways because she will want to settle down and I wont. which is understandable and ok. for now we are enjoying each other for as long as it lasts and the next time will be about mid november when I go to see her in LA before I travel europe.

On the camping trip I tried some mushroom cookies that she made. Part of this year but mainly this winter is to really try to enjoy and experience life and when she asked me if I wanted to try mushrooms before she came up. I said yes (after researching it). I'm ok with the idea of experimenting with natural drugs, mainly plants. but I wouldn't ever touch synthetic drugs. To tell you the truth the mushroom trip was different than I expected but It was good. It felt like the body sensation you get when you are pretty buzzed from alcohol just before you get really drunk, but I felt really really exhausted when I was laying down which was most of the time. when I would stand up I would almost feel drunk but totally cohearant. we laid next to the fire pretty much most of the time which was cool and I kind of just dazed off into it playing with it with a stick. It was actually a pretty enjoyable experience. It wasn't like how it is portrayed as you seeing things and totally triping out. maybe different mushrooms are like that and it depends on how much you take but this expreince was really cool and I would take them again in the future if the opportunity was right.

After she left it was a little sad but things gotta keep moving on. Just 10 days away from my normal routines and It has taken me just about the same time to catch back up with everything. Don't get me wrong though I loved every moment of it and it was well worth everything. 2 days after she left I had a date planned with a 18 year old russian girl from the online dating site. I know what you're probably thinking. for someone who was so into a girl you sure aren't showing any respect. Well to me I do have that voice in the back of my head. also We aren't bf and gf. I do respect her but that doesn't mean that I need to take myself off the market just because I'm casually seeing someone who lives in another state.

The russian girl wasn't as hot as I thought she was and the few girls I went on dates with from the online site turned out the same as well. I'm actually losing a lot of interest in the online dating and actually just prefer going out and meeting them myself. None the less me and the russian got along fine. We went to a few places around downtown anchorage and I was actually going to try and lay her that day because she lived about 300 miles away and was just visiting for a week. the date went smooth and I got her back to my room with no hesitation really. I tried escalating pretty fast but all I got was some intense make out sessions. I'm still working on my first date lays. It turned out she had brothers she was visiting and was trying to live here so she was came the to try to find a job. we ended up setting up another date a couple days later and went go kart racing which was fun. got smoothies, headed back to my place where I began escalating again. russians are their own breed. they will test  you and test you. say no no no but if you keep persisting and not showing and fear and show your manly "you dont phase me" attitude then you break down their shield and they attack you with their extreme sexual desire.

Things started to get really heated as I would take 2 steps foreward and have to take one back. I could have done this all the way to sex but I already decided before the second date that I was growing tired of her. After dealing with a bit of russians I actually don't really care for their personalities too much. they look really good, have the accent and everything like that but they lack a lot of other things.
well I must have escalated enough with her because she began to get aggressive with her sexual side and began to rub and kiss all over me. my clothes came off and she was giving me a blow job. for an 18 year old she knew what she was doing and this was the first blow job that ever made me cum... and she swallowed, pretty hot. afterwards we laid together and then she gave me a back massage. man, I was almost starting to reconsider her haha. she left a little bit after that and we've texted a couple times but i've kept it short. I wasn't trying to use her and if nothing would have happend i would have been fine with it but I'm just not into her so unless i get desperate or something or feel lonely than I probably wont be seeing her any more.

other than that i've been spending the last week trying to catch up on everything that I have been getting behind on. I've also been doing my demo trading (while at work on my phone :p ) things are going good and i'm learning but I can tell it will be a while before I start to get profitable if at all. turns out trading is simple but oh so complex. other than that life is good for the most part. so until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)