The red pill.

So A little while ago I wrote a post on the daygame  forum about taking the "red pill"
and I thought I could share it on here as well. maybe even enlighten some people to a more open minded way of thinking.
If anyone is unsure of what I am talking about the reference basically comes from the movie the matrix.

Even though this is a movie the concept is very real. we might not take any "pills" but we are in a world that is controlled. There are plenty of people out there who have already covered this topic and it can vary from relationships to jobs and your everyday life but the overlying theme is that we live a life that is already laid out for us in steps on how we should live our lives instead of how we actually really want to.

Have you ever put a decent amount of thought into why you live your life the way you do, or why you HAVE to live a certain way. What if you were to go against what is "socially normal". The thoughts can go deeper and deeper but taking action is what really matters. I have actually began my own journey but I will save that for the next post.

here is the post I wrote up on the forum. Although it is mainly centered around daygame/seduction you can still relate to it in an every day life.

This is going to be extremely TL;DR to forewarn you but could be worth it. I know this might all seem like a lot of nonsense talk but those who are far enough to recognize what I am talking about will see it and maybe some that aren't. If nothing else watch the clips at the end of the post, Enjoy

I look back on it now and I think it was about 6 months ago. 6 months ago I took the red pill and my life has changed, there's no going back now.

for anyone wondering what "the red pill" is. in a fictional base if you seen or watch the movie The Matrix the red pill is offered to Neo a character in the movie so he can leave the matrix.

In real life the "matrix" is the system. it's the way society has programed us to live without us even knowing.

First off I want to say I am one of those people who don't really look much into "conspiracies" or "thats what they want you to believe" type of things. so if you do read this and think that than you either are to far stuck into the system or have yet to be induced by the red pill.

let it begin...   can you truly and honestly say you don't care what others think? truly true to yourself, can you say and know that you don't care what others think?

we all get into this mainly because we want to get good with women. there might be a little bit different motives here or there but the underlying theme is we want to have the type of women we want in our life. so we learn.

After learning some theory and applying it you can quickly come to find that seduction/game is a learnable skill. a skill that can be mastered if you so choose but not necessary.

How do we get the women we want after we find the seduction community. we learn, we learn what we need to to and how to do it to be able to land the girls we want. first it might start with theory, then techniques and inner game. The more you get serious about game/seduction the more it molds your life into an attractive lifestyle and you begin to mold yourself to be a better you, the best you...

It is within that deeper journey into game/seduction that you have the choice of taking the red pill.

so basics are first. we learn how to approach, talk to girls and people in an attractive way that makes it enjoyable. we have to learn the specific details and techniques that it takes to land the girl. eventually with enough practice and dedication we land the girl. but the journey doesn't stop there if you aren't blind to see the path.

We keep learning. it's fun. we're having fun and enjoying the results and the experiences. we like it and it is positive and constructive. it helps make us a better person. A better you... A better you.

We then learn that not only should we learn the specific techniques but we should also have the "inner game", the mindset, and the thoughts of doing not living up to expectations. letting go of the results and enjoying the game for what it is and not worry about what people think. which could be the biggest and most crucial step in a lot of aspects of life and just so happens.

That's where you take the red pill if you so choose.

Don't worry what people think. a simple enough thought, but the thought will burrow into your mind and change your life forever if you let it. as the red pill does.

To explain what I mean unfortunately it will be a long process and we have to start from the beginning.

We are born, nothing to out of the ordinary there I suppose. Then between the ages of 1-5 you are raised by your family. maybe your family had specific customs like a strict religion or other specific customs which is even worse cause it basically indulges you with the blue pill from a very young age.

next is our primary school year. we are introduced into the world. we are taught basic thing we need to know in the world. reading, writing, spelling, and math as well as other things which is all good. looking back at it primary school isn't one of the bigger places that society feeds you the blue pill but it basically is conditioning you for it. that being said primary school is still a good thing to learn the basics of what you need to learn.

next, depending on where you live and how they go about it is middle school (ages 12-14). This is where it really conditions you and is the very early stages of your blue pill exposure.

you now are learning more things. which is good in itself. but they are more specific. you are learning advance math skills. learning sports. learning about specific topics like economics and advance sciences. They may even start to segregate you into different "groups". Advance math classes, jv and varsity sports teams, after school programs.

Next is the highschool years (ages 14-18) and in mind is where they force you to swallow the blue pill.

Now you start to learn about a whole lot of different things. not only school related but in your life as well. your old enough that you start to act out what you see and react to specific situations. this is where you are wiped out and erased from your true self. They teach you how you are going to have to behave and act once you are out of high school. that you will need a career and they teach you subjects you need to learn so that you can obtain that career. They preach to you that you need a career so that you can make enough money to live happily. they really seperate you into different groups. the ones that are really smart are now in top classes, and the lesser are in worst classes just to pass. you are exposed to how people and groups behave.

They teach you how to be part of society, and right there that is where you swallow it. You learn how to be part of society.... Not how you want to be part of it. you only think it is how you choose because they have been conditioning you almost your whole life up to that point.. no, they teach you how to be a part of society how they want you to be a part of society

now you either go into college, maybe go straight into your career or job, or maybe a different direction in life none the less you are now part of.... society....

society... the matrix... the system... it's all the same.

up to that point in your life you are filled with information society wanted you to know. the schools taught you things that you would need to contribute to society. what you watched on television you began to act. the fancy cars, clothes, and flashy things all the celebrities had you now wanted. everywhere you looked you were informed that materials were a necessity. you need money to get the materials you need. you need a high paying job to get the money you need. you get girls if you have money. etc.

all those things are what society wants you to believe. why? because the people at the very top benefit from it. just think all the fancy things you don't need you're spending all that money for happiness based on materials. materials that will lose there attraction. oh but you need money so you work and a high paying job. those high paying jobs are usually pretty beneficial to society. they make you work for some boss for long hours, years doing the things they want you to do because they want it all the while you paying taxes to the government and them benefiting from it.. they want you to buy the house because that is what people in society does. well guess what now you are paying mortgage, with interest. interest that the bank is collecting from your house loans, car loans, school loans. anything they can get from you or benefit from you.

next and more relevant to us is dating. through out our life in society we learn that we will have girlfriends yes, but eventually we are to get married. why? first off marriage was brought on only by the church and society in the first place. in the relevance of history, marriage is a pretty new concept if you consider how long the human species has been around. and if you look pre human history into ancestors like apes and monkeys there is no marriage just groups. in fact besides a couple species of birds humans are the only animals that mate for life.

now why would society want you to get married. simple so that you can settle down get into the routine that society wants you to be in and keep contributing. also they want you to produce children so that they can also one day contribute to society the same way you did.

Basically, if you look at a "normal" persons life. there overall routine, the things that make up there life is generated to help benefit other people. help benefit society.... the system.

I could keep going on specific details and examples (if interested you can PM me) but I think you get the point. a bit ago I wrote that I had to explain all those details so that I could explain how deep the though of what "don't worry what people think" and how that is when you take the red pill if you so choose to commit to.

If you look back at all those instances or any instance, situation or decision in your life or another persons life and were able to implement not worrying about what people thought. truly truly implement it true to your self that you didn't worry about what other people thought just think about how it would change things.

materials don't matter now. the only reason they mattered before was because they were so glamorized by everything around you as "must have" things. you needed them because everyone else wanted them or had them. now you don't care what people think so you don't care if they think differently about you because you don't have the materials. you don't care.

a house, a car, or anything else needing a loan. yes I do agree they are convenient. but not must haves. what if you didn't care what people thought if you didn't own anything that involved you getting a loan to get it. if you don't care about owning it now that means you won't be getting the loan. that means you won't be paying the bank all that interest.

what about your career. do you need all that money that society told you that you needed so you can get the things or do the things that they made you think you needed. no. you don't care anymore. you do need money to survive I agree but why not just survive and to do the things you truly want to do. not what society has programmed into you but what you truly deep down want now that you don't care I bet you're want list is a whole lot cheaper. well that's not good for those big companies that have to jobs that pay well that involve you working so hard for someone else.

this can keep going and going. just think. think of a world where no one cared what other people thought. that means they wouldn't be doing what society wants them to and this world would be completely different.

The simple act that we are taught in daygame. "don't care what others think" is a rabbit hole, it is THE RED PILL. and this hole is so deep you couldn't even imagine (because society doesn't want you to) but if you choose to you can go as deep as you want. the best part about it is if you do take the journey into "the rabbit hole" - "the red pill" then you begin to benefit from it. not everyone else, not society, not the government or who ever wants to control your life but YOU!

now you begin to live life up to your own expectations, how you want to live it, why you want to live it that why and do what you want.

and why.... because you don't care what other people think

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cn13UfHDm3I

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nUXNVzgE764

lovely suprise.

ok since the last time I wrote a post I have had a bit happened but I was just so busy I couldn't write up a post about it all

the first thing that comes to my mind is daygame. over the last few weeks I have been pretty much going out 4 days a week and even though I'm only going out for 2 hours at a time after work I can see the difference from the momentum of going out day after day, compared to just a couple days a week.

it seemed like just about everyday I had at least 1 interaction the went really well that ended in a number. I think I got about 4 numbers and a facebook in the last couple weeks. 1 of those girls I have already went on a date with. another girl we were planning a date but she said she was going to be busy for the next few weeks. I looked her up on facebook and found out she has a boyfriend but she still seems interested in meeting up so we'll see if it happens and the rest of the girls i'm still int he process of communication with them.

besides this week trading has been going pretty well. it seems like week after week I find improvements and I get more results so things are progressing good. this week at work is pretty slow because our generator took a crap on us so I havn't had any time to myself at work to practice trading.

the other thing that was really nice was that the girl from LA ended up flying back up here to see me. just for the weeknd this time. luckily it was right when our generator at work failed so we got a day off and I was actually able to spend the weeknd with her. We didn't have anything wild planned. just went to some good restraunts and had some romantic times as well as lots of sex. I think we fucked 3 times each day. yeah shes got a crazy sex drive. fun though. thanks to her as well this time helped me set another milestone with her being the first girl that I ever cummed on their face hahaha. she loved it though.

Also the big talk I was waiting for came up this time around and I was actually expecting it. basically it came down to the fact that she wants to get more serious with me and if not than she wants to move on which is understandable and I'm totally fine with the thought of it.

It got me thinking though and I have told myself before that if there was ever a girl that I was really interested in than I wouldn't mind getting into a relationship with her and I've told myself that I wouldn't mind dating the LA chick either if we were around each other more. So we're going to talk about it more but I think I might try the relationship with her this winter. I still want to travel and she loves traveling as well so im sure she would want to come to some places I travel to but I might not travel as much as I planned this winter and spend more time with her. if worst comes to worstand it doesnt work out than I just go back out daygaming and traveling so no big deal.

This week is probably going to be going pretty slow but that's the news as of late. so until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

Interested in learning how to trade?

I got a couple comments since I've started trading asking about Forex so I thought I'd do a post just on that for people who might be interested in getting into trading. I'll start off with a little story that first got me interested.

It was when I was coming back up to Alaska for my summer season after spending the winter in L.A. I decided to drive to seattle since I had made some friends and wanted to see a couple girls all of which I met there last year while living there. After arriving I set up some plans to meet up with a friend, his wife, and I brought along one of the girls I had met there. we met up for some drinks and a quick meal as we played catch up and talked about what we had been doing for the past year. That's when he told me about forex. we talked about it for 5 minutes and I was instantly interested. I was ending my time playing poker and was looking for something new and it seemed like it had presented itself. He also told me a story himself. He told me that one of his friends dad in florida is a brain surgeon and does work for NASA. He said one of his patients was an old guy and after a while they became friends and it wasn't too long until he met the brain surgeons son. apparently this old man had retired at the age of 26 at was a multi millionaire and had done so by trading in the forex market. He told the brain surgeons son to round up a team of 3 other people and he would put up the funds and teach them forex trading while he would also take a percentage of the profit as he was staking them. so my friend was contacted and that is where he is now learning to trade.

So since then I have been contacting my friend here or there and he has been giving me little helpful suggestions on what i should try. we aren't close close friends or anything so it doesn't feel right trying to ask him for all this information and not giving anything in return. but he has helped me sending me in the right direction.

To start of If someone was interested in learning how to trade the forex market I would suggest learning about it first. there are plenty of free training sites online. a lot of the trading brokers that you will be trading through have free training information as well. The main website I was directed to and I would suggest is called babypips.com they have a "school" you go through online which gives you a really good all around feel for the forex market and they delve into a lot of material. they also have a forum on the website and a blog as well as a couple other things. after you finish the school or during your learning. you can open a demo account at a broker site. there are tons of brokers out there and it is suggested to do your homework on the broker you choose as some might not be regulated or could be a little sketchy.

I oppted to go with the most popular broker because it was the easiest. the broker i am going through is called Oanda. some brokers have there own software that you trade on but most of them also have the software called meta trader 4 which is the most popular (MT4). once you've downloaded the software you choose to open a demo account and you can start making real trades with real time data on the real market just with fake money. by going through the baby pips school training you will learn a lot on how things should start out and you will skip some of the headaches of just jumping into it. If you're looking to trade on your phone there is an app that has the MT4 software called meta quotes I think they have an MT4 app and an MT5 app I have both but the MT5 has better currency pair options to choose from so I trade on that mostly.

with all that said trading can be really frustrating at times and really fun. to give you an Idea, I just started demo trading a month ago and I told myself I would give myself 2 years to try and become profitable. there was a statistic thrown out in the forums frequently that says 95% of traders are not winning traders. If anyone plays poker and are a winning player then you will know the thoughts behind that as most players are not winning players and it takes time to be a winning player. If you think trading is a easy way to get rich than you are wrong. I can directly relate it with poker and just like poker it is a slow steady grind of ups and downs but the overall direction is up.

I'm in no position to try and give anyone tips at the moment because I have just began myself and i'm trying to learn and become successful but if anyone needs more direction on getting started or something along those lines than I would be glad to help.

so until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

getting the ball back rolling

Alright so this week has went by pretty fast but nothing really exciting to report other than some future plans going on and my intentions for the next little while.

So work is the same, not a whole lot going on there same routine working 12 hours a day. at the moment we are working 7 days a week with every 3rd sunday off and it could very well stay that way until the end of the season. next sunday will be the next day off so i'm looking forward to that.

One thing I have been doing at work which I shouldn't be doing is practicing my trading on my phone. I found an app that is the same software I trade with on my computer but just for the phone. I'm still just demo trading but since i'm working 12 hours a day the time I have off after work is pretty limited and I would only have a small amount of time to practice each week.

Sneakily demo trading at work is giving me a lot of practice and so far it is going productively. basically over the last month I've found out how I want to trade and every thing that involves that. I've also figured out the bankroll requirements I would need to be able to make the kind of money that I want to make, which isn't much. if I can net 150$-200$ average a day I would be more than happy or even just netting 45-50k a year would be enough to make me happy.

All that seems that is left to do is practice practice practice. which I will be doing.....at work lol. I plan to keep practicing demo trading for the rest of the season and if I feel confident and profitable than I will deposit and start trading for real. If not than I will keep practicing until I do prove that I am profitable.

A couple concepts that I really like about trading so far is that you can demo trade (practice) with the real software, real indicators, real information and news releases. on real time charts. Basically you're practicing trading in the real time market just with fake money so when the time comes to switch over it isn't something you're going to be surprised about.

Another thing that really draws me to trading is how much money you can trade. not necessarily the amount of money you can trade but  the fact that your returns or how much you make depends on how much you risk. the market will always be the market it just depends on how much you risk. That is one thing about poker that I didn't like. if your bankroll increased and it was time to move up in stakes to start making more money that ment facing harder and harder compitetion the more you move up. which has a lot of complications in its self.  with forex if you are a proven profitable trader all that matters is how much you are putting down to determine how much you get back you dont have to worry about the market getting "harder" while you move up in stakes..

daygame has been pretty slow but pretty much expected it from alaska. I went out this weeknd trying to get things moving along after having the girl from LA come see me. It was a little difficult finding approachable girls but I found a few although I did have to push myself to approach but it was good for me. The weather is nice right now and should be for the next week so I'm actually planning on doing daygame through out the whole week which I havn't done up here. it will be slow and grueling and I don't expect much but I'm mainly doing it just to get the momentum going.

besides that I figured out the main places in europe I plan on going to this winter. which I'm really excited for. 11 cities in 11 different countries so far. If i get recommendations from people to check out other places then I will but for now I have my list. I also just got done with a skype date with the LA girl and she was talking about meeting up and going to south america for a little bit before I head over to europe so we'll see if that comes about. other than that. things are going smooth. just a little over 3 more months and the big adventure starts. so until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

so much fun! plus lay reports.

Ok I know it has been a little while but so much stuff has happened I literally haven't had time to update.

The last I left off I believe was just a few days before the girl from LA I was seeing before I left there was about to arrive for 10 days. I had a lot of things planned for us to do and I was also able to take 5 days off from work which really helped and I needed a little time away from work anyways.

So the first day she arrived I was actually working and when I came back to my place there she was sitting in my bed wearing a little nighty. we both smiled and were instantly in the moment. It didn't take long before I had her bent over and had our emotions swirling with lust and attraction.

This girl is 31 and has a higher sex drive than me. The whole time we were here She probably initiated sex 75% of the time. every day we had sex at least twice a day. So there isn't really a need to talk about a specific lay but the sex was great. very passionate, aggressive, soft, sensual, hard, filled with emotions. a whole mix of everything. we loved every minute of it, but if I had to choose a single best time it would have had to have been when we went camping and things got really intense which involved me shoving her into the tent and us going wild ;)

We also did a bunch of other things besides just great sex lol. We went to a couple really fancy resturants one of which I had a whole bottle of wine and we stayed at the hotel for the night which was really enjoyable and at the foot of the mountain. we went hiking, camping at the foot of a glacier that we hiked around. went on a really long coastal bike ride. Just a whole lot of Alaskan things and up to that point it was the most fun Iv'e had in AK this summer and probably will be until I leave. we both really had an awesome time and in those short 10 days our connection really grew.

We both really really like each other, and if I was in the same place as her I would make her my girlfriend for however long the spark stayed alive. me and her have got a lot in common and she's got a lot of things that I look for in a girl. to tell you the truth I kind of wish I was with her but as for now it isn't so. The only downside to her is that her biological clock is ticking and we actually talked about it. I'm not interested in marriage with anyone, and she said she could live with out getting married if it came to it, but she said she wanted kids. it actaully caused a little bit of a stir but it settled down a little later. We both really really like each other but I think it will eventually get to a point that we will have to go our seperate ways because she will want to settle down and I wont. which is understandable and ok. for now we are enjoying each other for as long as it lasts and the next time will be about mid november when I go to see her in LA before I travel europe.

On the camping trip I tried some mushroom cookies that she made. Part of this year but mainly this winter is to really try to enjoy and experience life and when she asked me if I wanted to try mushrooms before she came up. I said yes (after researching it). I'm ok with the idea of experimenting with natural drugs, mainly plants. but I wouldn't ever touch synthetic drugs. To tell you the truth the mushroom trip was different than I expected but It was good. It felt like the body sensation you get when you are pretty buzzed from alcohol just before you get really drunk, but I felt really really exhausted when I was laying down which was most of the time. when I would stand up I would almost feel drunk but totally cohearant. we laid next to the fire pretty much most of the time which was cool and I kind of just dazed off into it playing with it with a stick. It was actually a pretty enjoyable experience. It wasn't like how it is portrayed as you seeing things and totally triping out. maybe different mushrooms are like that and it depends on how much you take but this expreince was really cool and I would take them again in the future if the opportunity was right.

After she left it was a little sad but things gotta keep moving on. Just 10 days away from my normal routines and It has taken me just about the same time to catch back up with everything. Don't get me wrong though I loved every moment of it and it was well worth everything. 2 days after she left I had a date planned with a 18 year old russian girl from the online dating site. I know what you're probably thinking. for someone who was so into a girl you sure aren't showing any respect. Well to me I do have that voice in the back of my head. also We aren't bf and gf. I do respect her but that doesn't mean that I need to take myself off the market just because I'm casually seeing someone who lives in another state.

The russian girl wasn't as hot as I thought she was and the few girls I went on dates with from the online site turned out the same as well. I'm actually losing a lot of interest in the online dating and actually just prefer going out and meeting them myself. None the less me and the russian got along fine. We went to a few places around downtown anchorage and I was actually going to try and lay her that day because she lived about 300 miles away and was just visiting for a week. the date went smooth and I got her back to my room with no hesitation really. I tried escalating pretty fast but all I got was some intense make out sessions. I'm still working on my first date lays. It turned out she had brothers she was visiting and was trying to live here so she was came the to try to find a job. we ended up setting up another date a couple days later and went go kart racing which was fun. got smoothies, headed back to my place where I began escalating again. russians are their own breed. they will test  you and test you. say no no no but if you keep persisting and not showing and fear and show your manly "you dont phase me" attitude then you break down their shield and they attack you with their extreme sexual desire.

Things started to get really heated as I would take 2 steps foreward and have to take one back. I could have done this all the way to sex but I already decided before the second date that I was growing tired of her. After dealing with a bit of russians I actually don't really care for their personalities too much. they look really good, have the accent and everything like that but they lack a lot of other things.

well I must have escalated enough with her because she began to get aggressive with her sexual side and began to rub and kiss all over me. my clothes came off and she was giving me a blow job. for an 18 year old she knew what she was doing and this was the first blow job that ever made me cum... and she swallowed, pretty hot. afterwards we laid together and then she gave me a back massage. man, I was almost starting to reconsider her haha. she left a little bit after that and we've texted a couple times but i've kept it short. I wasn't trying to use her and if nothing would have happend i would have been fine with it but I'm just not into her so unless i get desperate or something or feel lonely than I probably wont be seeing her any more.

other than that i've been spending the last week trying to catch up on everything that I have been getting behind on. I've also been doing my demo trading (while at work on my phone :p ) things are going good and i'm learning but I can tell it will be a while before I start to get profitable if at all. turns out trading is simple but oh so complex. other than that life is good for the most part. so until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)

A little break for some fun

Finally I get to have some fun for a little while. we've pretty much been working non stop for the last month 12 hours a day and we are getting 2 days off on the 4th and 5th. One of the girls I was seeing in LA is actually coming up to see me for 10 days so I requested another 3 days off to go along with that so we could spend time together which I'm really looking forward to.

Up until this point it has mainly been just work. I've finished studying the forex material and started demo trading which I am actually really liking. It is going to be a while before I can put a lot of effort into it since i'm working so much but im looking forward to it. I have done some daygame on the weeknds  but nothing solid yet. I totally blew it with the 18 year old in the last couple posts. she flaked on one of our dates and I told her that I didnt want to waste my time on flakey people and to get a hold of me when she plans something out, and I've never heard from her again..... wierd. Lesson learned though, better to be unreactionary  in those situations. there is a russian girl that lives pretty far away that I met on the online dating site that is coming to the city to see her family and we have it planned to meet up in about 2 weeks so we'll see if that goes through, so far she seems keen to it.

The big news is my girl from LA that is coming. This girl I actually really like, and if I was more stationary then I would totally make her my girlfriend for a while but it's not going to happen at this stage in my life. We have a lot of stuff planned which includes hiking, camping, wining and dining and some other activities. as will as a lot of great sex.

When I was seeing her in LA she was a really good sex partner and is pretty exciting. She does pole dancing classes for cardio which is pretty sexy in itself and has an animalistic sex drive when you release it. so I'm really looking forward to it.

This post is actually going to be pretty short just because of the minimal things that have went on in life but the next post will be filled with goodies. so until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned. :)

Summer time fun.

This last week was actually pretty interesting and had a lot of different things going on about it.

So to start the week we were only working 8 hours a day instead of the usual 12 hours because things got a little slow. so on a couple of the days off I went freeboarding  which was awesome. The weather has been great for once in Alaskas past summers history. The only bad thing about Freeboarding is if you don't go with a friend who can drive you back up the hill then you have to hike which gets tiring  after a while.

The next fun thing was that I went on a date with the 18 year old that I approached in my last post. She actually turned out to be kind of an air head/ ditz but she is cute and so far is enjoyable. The date went pretty smooth and felt very natural. I'm not sure if it is because I was plenty older than her or not but I just felt so much more of a leader in the power role then when I have went on dates with girls who were older than me.

So we had it planned to go to a dessert shop and then get Italian sodas which we did. basically doing some basic chit chat getting to know you stuff. we walked around after that since it was so nice outside. the whole time I was running my hand down her back or the back of her neck. grabbing her shoulders  or hugging her. It was a pretty physically escalated date and it all felt pretty natural.

After walking around I lead her to my place and suggested we go up and listen to music which she agreed to. we laid on my bed and talked for a bit before she asked for a kiss. We made out for a bit but during the whole date her roomate was blowing up her phone trying to get her home to take care of her animals so there was pressure for her to leave. We made out for a bit before she needed to get back. I was pretty confident that I would see her again so I didn't push for the lay.

I don't think I will make this girl my summer girlfriend but she is a nice to have fun with. I actually have a date planned with her tomorrow so we'll see where it leads to.

Since I finished studying the forex material I had been trying to find a broker site that I wanted to trade through which was proving difficult. It is like trying to find the pokerstars but there are so many ultimatebet.coms out there. I did find a broker site that I think is pretty decent so I downloaded the software. I haven't started demo trading yet but I think I will by next week. now that I'm actually about to start demo trading it's almost like I have to relearn everything I just read but oh well.

At the end of the week work picked up and we were in a new area which involved us putting in 14 hour days so there was really room for anything after work. this next week we are back to our normal 12 hours but we will be back to the 14 hour days in probably a couple weeks.

Things are going good though, my LA girl will be here in about 10 days and I'm starting to see some results from being back in Alaska so it's all moving along. doesn't mean I want to be here though haha.

so  until next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)