so glad this month has finally ended for multiple reasons, also this month so far has been the most action packed month. too bad it wasnt good.
ill start with life. well this has a little to do with daygame as well but earlier in the month me and the girl i had been seeing when i first got back into alaska ended up splitting up. it never ment to be a serious relationship and pretty much ran its course so it wasnt a huge deal but still wasnt fun by any means. i also only had one day off this month which has been pretty stressful and its starting to wear on my body physically and mentally. this month was pretty much all around exhausting but it did seem to go by pretty fast which i thought it would do so thats a plus. only having 1 day off from work means i didnt really have much of a life. i hung out with my friends on my day off that was pretty much it. yeah pretty boring.
daygame was somewhat of a let down. i think i only went out 3 weeknds and from what i remember there wasnt hardly any girls out. it has got a lot colder especially in the last 2 weeks (even snowed once which was crazy!) so when its like that its almost like the girls go into hybrination. i ended up doing 8 approaches and got 1 number a couple days ago. i sent her a couple messages but didnt get a reply so she flaked. i felt like she would cause ive been skipping out on a pretty important step in the conversations which is building comfort. usually you open, build attraction and then go into comfort. well sometimes when youre all caught up in the moment its easy to forget to go into comfort before you end the conversation and thats why they flake. its something i have to work on but ill be able to put in a lot more effort when im in cali in a couple months.
poker was by far the biggest let down although i feel fine with my results. i ended up losing 75$ (7.5 buyins) but with rake back i only ended up being down 60$ in a massive 7000 hands. dammmmnnn!! i put in some volume. yeah jk. the reason i dont feel to bad about my results is because i felt like i played pretty well. i also had an insane losing session that lasted an hour that i talked about a couple posts ago. none the less its still another losing month which marks my 2nd losing month in 2.5 years. but ill say it again cause its my favorite excuse to run to :) if i were able to put in a decent amount of volume then im sure i wouldnt have losing months. hopefully this is the poker gods way of toying with me so that when i got to cali and play 5/10 then ill just destroy the game. i can hear it now " WAIT! this guy isnt even beating 10nl and he thinks he can beat 5/10" thats someone who hasnt read my blog before haha. i actually encourage degrading comments or trolling because it gives me more motivation to succeed.
october will probably be my favorite month for the reason because when its done i get to leave this horrible place and move to LA and do the things i want to do for 6 months. god i cant wait. october will probably be really low on volume and content. ill do the same routine for the first few weeks with daygame and poker but then i have to start organizing things and whatever else it takes for me to get ready to move. im not really expecting to much results from october, mainly just a practice month before i get to the real thing but ill still put effort into it like i would ordinarily.
well just this last month guys and things will really start to get fun and entertaining. also in the future i think i am going to try and add some videos of me maybe doing some approaches or playing some live hands and whatever else i want to put on her. its going to get really fun anyways untill next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Sunday, September 23, 2012
relizations in september
to continue from last week this week has continued in the shityness and un excitement factors which we all know.. is no fun.
life was pretty dull ive been working 7 days a week 12 hours a day for the past 3 weeks and today was my only day off. im starting to get burned out and exhausted of work and the routine and i couldnt wait for this day off. i planned on not doing much of anything and thats exactly what im doing. when i got off work yesterday i did go and hang out with some friends and just chilled and got some food but other than that the week has been really uneventful.
hang in there with me though guys 6 more weeks and ill be on the plane to seattle where the winter journey and excitement will start.
work went pretty shitty this week as well, since we've been working 5 months now everyone is starting to get a little on edge from the grind and tempers are starting to show. i hate this part of the job because its just an annoying process to deal with but im still makin that dolla girrllllll ! lol so yeah im dealing with that till the rest of the job which hopefully will go really fast.
poker was as lame this week, which is where my realization came but ill talk about that in a second. well since my horrible day last week on monday i booked a 2.5 buyin win which was cool and then the next 2 days i played i lost it and now pretty much sit even for the week which is the lame part. im not sure if ill play today or not i dont think i will though.
daygame this week wasss........ can you guess it..... yeah, lame. i actually didnt do any daygame this week. friday i had plans that fell through so i didnt do anything and yesterday when i got off work i didnt want to do anything so i didnt. also i big factor was since my body has been under a bit of stress lately my face has broken out with blemishes a little bit which looks lovely. a saying in the pick up community is if you look good youll feel good. well i wasnt feeling good about my looks so i know it would have effected my mentality.
so my realizations about poker are mainly volume based. after playing for most the summer while working 6-7 days a week 12 hours a day im usually booking between 5-10 hours of play a week. more so around 5 though. and besiedes june when i had my tonsils taken out and was able to put in more volume im pretty much averaging around 10-15k hands a month which anyone who grinds regularly knows that really not even worth talking about in terms of volume. so over the summer if you add all my hands up i realized that if i were to be able to grind regularly maybe 8 hours a day than i could do my whole summers worth of volume in about 2 weeks. what that kinda leads to is all this "varriance" ive been having over the last couple months isnt really major varriance at all and its just a normal swing in terms of hands played. thats my excuse anyways so let me be happy. also the only month that i was a decent winner ( 32 buyins) was june which is when i had my tonsils taken out and i put in like 60k hands i think. basically i never really tried playing this summer for the winnings but more for the practice for when i move to l.a. so i can keep my mind fresh but it has still been frustrating pretty much breaking even for like the past 3 months even if it is only like 25k hands.
the anticipation is starting to build as my time gets closer and closer before i leave. i only have like 40 days untill im out of here so lets hope i can stay sane for that long. untill next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)
life was pretty dull ive been working 7 days a week 12 hours a day for the past 3 weeks and today was my only day off. im starting to get burned out and exhausted of work and the routine and i couldnt wait for this day off. i planned on not doing much of anything and thats exactly what im doing. when i got off work yesterday i did go and hang out with some friends and just chilled and got some food but other than that the week has been really uneventful.
work went pretty shitty this week as well, since we've been working 5 months now everyone is starting to get a little on edge from the grind and tempers are starting to show. i hate this part of the job because its just an annoying process to deal with but im still makin that dolla girrllllll ! lol so yeah im dealing with that till the rest of the job which hopefully will go really fast.
poker was as lame this week, which is where my realization came but ill talk about that in a second. well since my horrible day last week on monday i booked a 2.5 buyin win which was cool and then the next 2 days i played i lost it and now pretty much sit even for the week which is the lame part. im not sure if ill play today or not i dont think i will though.
daygame this week wasss........ can you guess it..... yeah, lame. i actually didnt do any daygame this week. friday i had plans that fell through so i didnt do anything and yesterday when i got off work i didnt want to do anything so i didnt. also i big factor was since my body has been under a bit of stress lately my face has broken out with blemishes a little bit which looks lovely. a saying in the pick up community is if you look good youll feel good. well i wasnt feeling good about my looks so i know it would have effected my mentality.
so my realizations about poker are mainly volume based. after playing for most the summer while working 6-7 days a week 12 hours a day im usually booking between 5-10 hours of play a week. more so around 5 though. and besiedes june when i had my tonsils taken out and was able to put in more volume im pretty much averaging around 10-15k hands a month which anyone who grinds regularly knows that really not even worth talking about in terms of volume. so over the summer if you add all my hands up i realized that if i were to be able to grind regularly maybe 8 hours a day than i could do my whole summers worth of volume in about 2 weeks. what that kinda leads to is all this "varriance" ive been having over the last couple months isnt really major varriance at all and its just a normal swing in terms of hands played. thats my excuse anyways so let me be happy. also the only month that i was a decent winner ( 32 buyins) was june which is when i had my tonsils taken out and i put in like 60k hands i think. basically i never really tried playing this summer for the winnings but more for the practice for when i move to l.a. so i can keep my mind fresh but it has still been frustrating pretty much breaking even for like the past 3 months even if it is only like 25k hands.
the anticipation is starting to build as my time gets closer and closer before i leave. i only have like 40 days untill im out of here so lets hope i can stay sane for that long. untill next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)
Sunday, September 16, 2012
the break up
for those readers that read my last post i said i would go into more description about the breakup and relationship i just got done with so this post i will be talking about my thoughts on that relationship
when i first got back to alaska for this summer i had about a week before i started work. before that i was doing a little daygame and within the first 10 approaches from me getting back i got 2 numbers that didnt flake. one of the girls ended up fizzling out but the other girl didnt. her name was lauren and thats where it started.
i was able to land a first date with her and basically swept her off her feet. i like to think i was doing all the prince charming type things girls wish a guy would do. on the first date we actually went a little deep into each others backgrounds and i was able to figure out that she had a wild past. after the date i remember thinking that i would never try to date her seriously because i didnt think she was proper girlfriend material. that being said i still liked her and we had chemistry. from there we had a second date where we figured out each other more and the sexual tension started to build. the 3rd "date" she ended up spending the night and we sealed the deal.
congruent to her personality was her sexual side as well. she was wild in bed and the sex was fantastic probably the best ive had. well from there we started seeing each other about once a week depending on how our schedules went. we went out dancing together, went to a concert. out to dinner, and other venues like that. she was fun and we both enjoyed each others time but it was only a matter of time.
a little background on me is that the two previous longterm relationships ive had the girls ended up cheating on me. ive also had problems with giving people to much credit for their word and being let down. after all that adds up it ends up with me having horrible trust issues. (all talk about that a little later) as well as comitment issues. jealousy isnt that big of a thing. i mean ill get jealous if my girl is hanging around another guy but i dont show it the major thing i do is just really start to question the trust of her and everything that deals with that.
so after i found out about her wild past and what type of girl she is im concerns were on alert mode. the only thing that kept me around and not run away was the fact that she was going to therapy and trying to change her life cause she didnt like her past. and to be honest from how she described her past she was nothing like that person anymore. of course that didnt stop my insecurities.
anytime she would bring up a friend that was guy that she would hang out with i would get upset and then we would banter about it. it was my biggest weakness but we were dealing with it. after all we werent going to get serious anyways. after spending time together things would come up that i just didnt really care for in her life. her lifestyles, friends, family, goals and other things. i recognized this but id didnt stop me from seeing her. like i said it was just a summer relationship and that was it. all that mattered was that we liked eachother and we had good chemistry so we clicked.
well it was almost 5 months of dating when we got into an argument and then of course my trust issues came out and we got into a bigger argument and she left my place pretty upset. after a few days she came back over to talk about everything and the talk was more about the whole relationship. i liked her a lot but i wouldnt ever try to have anything serious with her because although she never did anything bad i just dont think i could get over her past even if i didnt have any issues with me. when we talked about the relationship thats what it came down to. she was starting to have more feelings for me. she never said it but i think she was pretty close to love. she told me that she could see that i didnt like her for who she was. what she was deep down which included everything. her life, passions, friends and everything. i did like a lot of things about her but she was right. when it came down to it i really didnt like who she truely was and if she wanted a serious relationship then she does deserve someone who will accept her and lover her for everything that she was.
not to forget me either, after learning all this daygame stuff i decided i while ago i would never settle for less. with lauren if i would have got serious with her than i would have although thats mean to say i feel like i deserve way more if i wanted a serious girlfriend (but i dont). in the end the relation ship was perfect for what it was. a fun short term exciting summertime fling and i think she would agree. breakups are never fun and im still a little bummed out but looking back on it i enjoyed it a lot. after the break up a couple major things dawned on me. 1 was that i need therapy for my issues, and 2 was i questioned what i really wanted out of a relationship.
i plan on getting into therapy next summer when i come back to alaska to try and help with mainly my commitment and trust issues but im sure we'll go into more indepth issues. as far as what i want out of a relationship its a little fuzzy. i know i dont want a long term super serious relationship for a few reasons. right now my life is a little speratic i plan on moving to a different state every 6 months for atleast the next 3 years so thats the main reason. plus im a big statistics guy and the numbers arent in the favor of marriage. one night stands are fine for sex but i want more. i like short term relationships and after i met lauren i kinda hesitated with her and she said "let whatever happens happen" and i went with it. i like that approach cause if you dont work out then you just end it. if it turns out great then you should have a lot of fun for the duration of the relationship.
ive always hated breaking up and with my 2 serious relationships the breakups for me were a horrible experience and im still haunted with the memories from the last one. i think one of the major reasons was cause of the horrible lonliness i would feel and not knowing whats next and having to wait. now that ive found daygame its all changed. if a relationship ends i feel like i can do my grieving and move on a lot quicker because i have the skills to find another high valued girl to fulfill my life, and i mostly come to realize that this last week after the break up.
as for right now ill run daygame but i doubt ill get much success before i leave just because of the horrible selection in alaska and the limited time i have to run game and the time i have left. its fine though because soon enough ill be in LA which is one of the best places to daygame in the world and i should have plenty of women in my life so that will be exciting.
all in all though i learned a lot from lauren especially who i was and wanted as a person. we are going to stay friends and i think we will end up good friends as long as we stay in contact. she my first relationship shince running daygame so shes definitley memorable and i enjoyed my time with her but for now its time to move on. so heres to her....
till next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)
when i first got back to alaska for this summer i had about a week before i started work. before that i was doing a little daygame and within the first 10 approaches from me getting back i got 2 numbers that didnt flake. one of the girls ended up fizzling out but the other girl didnt. her name was lauren and thats where it started.
i was able to land a first date with her and basically swept her off her feet. i like to think i was doing all the prince charming type things girls wish a guy would do. on the first date we actually went a little deep into each others backgrounds and i was able to figure out that she had a wild past. after the date i remember thinking that i would never try to date her seriously because i didnt think she was proper girlfriend material. that being said i still liked her and we had chemistry. from there we had a second date where we figured out each other more and the sexual tension started to build. the 3rd "date" she ended up spending the night and we sealed the deal.
congruent to her personality was her sexual side as well. she was wild in bed and the sex was fantastic probably the best ive had. well from there we started seeing each other about once a week depending on how our schedules went. we went out dancing together, went to a concert. out to dinner, and other venues like that. she was fun and we both enjoyed each others time but it was only a matter of time.
a little background on me is that the two previous longterm relationships ive had the girls ended up cheating on me. ive also had problems with giving people to much credit for their word and being let down. after all that adds up it ends up with me having horrible trust issues. (all talk about that a little later) as well as comitment issues. jealousy isnt that big of a thing. i mean ill get jealous if my girl is hanging around another guy but i dont show it the major thing i do is just really start to question the trust of her and everything that deals with that.
so after i found out about her wild past and what type of girl she is im concerns were on alert mode. the only thing that kept me around and not run away was the fact that she was going to therapy and trying to change her life cause she didnt like her past. and to be honest from how she described her past she was nothing like that person anymore. of course that didnt stop my insecurities.
anytime she would bring up a friend that was guy that she would hang out with i would get upset and then we would banter about it. it was my biggest weakness but we were dealing with it. after all we werent going to get serious anyways. after spending time together things would come up that i just didnt really care for in her life. her lifestyles, friends, family, goals and other things. i recognized this but id didnt stop me from seeing her. like i said it was just a summer relationship and that was it. all that mattered was that we liked eachother and we had good chemistry so we clicked.
well it was almost 5 months of dating when we got into an argument and then of course my trust issues came out and we got into a bigger argument and she left my place pretty upset. after a few days she came back over to talk about everything and the talk was more about the whole relationship. i liked her a lot but i wouldnt ever try to have anything serious with her because although she never did anything bad i just dont think i could get over her past even if i didnt have any issues with me. when we talked about the relationship thats what it came down to. she was starting to have more feelings for me. she never said it but i think she was pretty close to love. she told me that she could see that i didnt like her for who she was. what she was deep down which included everything. her life, passions, friends and everything. i did like a lot of things about her but she was right. when it came down to it i really didnt like who she truely was and if she wanted a serious relationship then she does deserve someone who will accept her and lover her for everything that she was.
not to forget me either, after learning all this daygame stuff i decided i while ago i would never settle for less. with lauren if i would have got serious with her than i would have although thats mean to say i feel like i deserve way more if i wanted a serious girlfriend (but i dont). in the end the relation ship was perfect for what it was. a fun short term exciting summertime fling and i think she would agree. breakups are never fun and im still a little bummed out but looking back on it i enjoyed it a lot. after the break up a couple major things dawned on me. 1 was that i need therapy for my issues, and 2 was i questioned what i really wanted out of a relationship.
i plan on getting into therapy next summer when i come back to alaska to try and help with mainly my commitment and trust issues but im sure we'll go into more indepth issues. as far as what i want out of a relationship its a little fuzzy. i know i dont want a long term super serious relationship for a few reasons. right now my life is a little speratic i plan on moving to a different state every 6 months for atleast the next 3 years so thats the main reason. plus im a big statistics guy and the numbers arent in the favor of marriage. one night stands are fine for sex but i want more. i like short term relationships and after i met lauren i kinda hesitated with her and she said "let whatever happens happen" and i went with it. i like that approach cause if you dont work out then you just end it. if it turns out great then you should have a lot of fun for the duration of the relationship.
ive always hated breaking up and with my 2 serious relationships the breakups for me were a horrible experience and im still haunted with the memories from the last one. i think one of the major reasons was cause of the horrible lonliness i would feel and not knowing whats next and having to wait. now that ive found daygame its all changed. if a relationship ends i feel like i can do my grieving and move on a lot quicker because i have the skills to find another high valued girl to fulfill my life, and i mostly come to realize that this last week after the break up.
as for right now ill run daygame but i doubt ill get much success before i leave just because of the horrible selection in alaska and the limited time i have to run game and the time i have left. its fine though because soon enough ill be in LA which is one of the best places to daygame in the world and i should have plenty of women in my life so that will be exciting.
all in all though i learned a lot from lauren especially who i was and wanted as a person. we are going to stay friends and i think we will end up good friends as long as we stay in contact. she my first relationship shince running daygame so shes definitley memorable and i enjoyed my time with her but for now its time to move on. so heres to her....
Friday, September 14, 2012
rock bottom for the summer
well i hit an ultimate low for the summer in all aspects of life so this is what this post will be explaining. be warned there will be plenty of juicy details but also plenty of complaining.
ill start with life first since its the more juicy details. well me and the girl ive been seeing from the beginning of the summer just went through some roughness. on monday we ended up getting into a tiff which sparked an argument and we both said some pretty mean and regrettable things to each other and she left after we were done fighting. thursday she came over to talk about things and we discussed a lot about me and her which went a little like this.
basically the fight made her start thinking about me and her together. i also was thinking the same thing. we both like each other a lot but her emotions are growing for me and i am able to keep mine where they are at. i never intended to get really serious with her and she understood that but with anybody, attachment is inevitable. it basically came down to we werent right for each other. we do have a great connection and chemistry, the sex is great, and everything is perfect for a short term relationship. the only thing is that we would not last as a long term relationship at all and thats what it came down to. she was getting more feelings and started looking at the relationship going further but she knew we wouldnt work as did i. she wanted to just be friends and i agreed.
i cried after she left cause although i never intended to date her for a long time she filled my emptiness and made me feel validated. when she left it was all gone. breakups are never easy but after i went to sleep thinking about it i woke up refreshed. the best thing about me learning all this day game that i never had before is that when a relationship ends i now know how to get another girl in my life. although im not "over" her quite yet i know there will be other girls. doesnt mean im not sad still :(
another good thing is that she really does want to keep contact with me and i can really use a female like her as a friend. she understands me and gets who i am so i can turn to her for a lot of female advice. a little suprise though is that she came over today cause we agreed on being crazy and have "break up sex". i told her would want more and she said she can come over every friday for sex and thats it which is fine. i can tell she doesnt want to let go cause i really do mean somthing to her but im just not the guy that would be able to be with her which i totally agree with. so it looks like that came to a halt about a month before i thought it would. since my last long term relationship about 2.5 years ago i had a couple short occurances with girls in my life and then a girl i dated for about a month in washington so this girl was the closest thing for me getting back into the dating world. it kinda made me question what ireally wanted. i think this subjext is long enough so i might do another post on the details a bit later.
poker was amazing, it just sucks that it wasnt amazing in a good way lol. i hit a cold deck like i never have before i such a short period of time (1 hour). so this is how the first hand goes. i flop middle set on a A Q J board. turn is a Q and river is an A and guy shoves for his remaining 50bb, i sigh and fold. no biggie right, what ever. next scenario i bluff off 50bb (i dont bluff that much in 10nl) another no biggie. now the sparks fly. i raise pre with 66 and get 2 callers. flop comes J 7 4. both players have a high vpip so i feel like this flop is dry enough i can stab at it even though i have a little equity. both players call. turn is a 6. alright! with both players calling than they should be able to call again i bet 3/4 pot. both call. river is an A kinda crappy card but people dont fold i shove they both call villan 1 has JJ and villan 2 has 77. yeah set over set over set how often does that happen. 5 hands later i have 66 raise pre and get like 4 callers flop comes 6 5 2. i bet out and player to my left raises. i feel like he has an over pair so i just smooth call. turn i like a 9 or somthing. since i called if he does have an over pair he might check through so i lead out about half pot and he shoves i call hes got 34 and holds. 2 hands later it folds to the hijack who raises. cutoff 3 bets really small. i feel like they were both stealing. i have kk on the button i just flat call. hijack 4 bets small, cutoff flats and i min 5 bet. hijack folds and cutoff shoves and i call AA vs KK and hijack says he had KK as well. last hand theres a lag that raises early with one caller i have AK and 3 bet. raiser folds and other player calls. flop comes 8 K 2 two spades. he leads out and i just flat. turn is a blank. he checks i bet he shoves i call and he has AK of spades. river is a spade. and in a short hour i lost 5 buyins (50$) and log off frustrated. again i will do another post about this topic a little later
well my mom came to see me on tuesday to get some lunch and after fighting with my girl. work was frustrating i was a little frustrated. she showed up late and i was all upset and had an argument with her. so yeah i got my mom all pissed at me as well. which i hate doing. im not even going to attempt to run any daygame this weeknd. plus ive got a couple lovely pimples on my face that just look so inviting.
so yeah that was my week of crap. im just going to not try and do much this weeknd except maybe watch some pickup material and browse the poker forum and look at shit on the internet. my spirits are hard to crash specially with a little variance like this so i will quote a line from the movie "batman: the dark night"
"The sky is darkest just before dawn, and i promise you dawn is coming"
stay tuned for the next couple posts if your interested in the indepth thoughts of the subjects i mentioned.
ill start with life first since its the more juicy details. well me and the girl ive been seeing from the beginning of the summer just went through some roughness. on monday we ended up getting into a tiff which sparked an argument and we both said some pretty mean and regrettable things to each other and she left after we were done fighting. thursday she came over to talk about things and we discussed a lot about me and her which went a little like this.
basically the fight made her start thinking about me and her together. i also was thinking the same thing. we both like each other a lot but her emotions are growing for me and i am able to keep mine where they are at. i never intended to get really serious with her and she understood that but with anybody, attachment is inevitable. it basically came down to we werent right for each other. we do have a great connection and chemistry, the sex is great, and everything is perfect for a short term relationship. the only thing is that we would not last as a long term relationship at all and thats what it came down to. she was getting more feelings and started looking at the relationship going further but she knew we wouldnt work as did i. she wanted to just be friends and i agreed.
i cried after she left cause although i never intended to date her for a long time she filled my emptiness and made me feel validated. when she left it was all gone. breakups are never easy but after i went to sleep thinking about it i woke up refreshed. the best thing about me learning all this day game that i never had before is that when a relationship ends i now know how to get another girl in my life. although im not "over" her quite yet i know there will be other girls. doesnt mean im not sad still :(
another good thing is that she really does want to keep contact with me and i can really use a female like her as a friend. she understands me and gets who i am so i can turn to her for a lot of female advice. a little suprise though is that she came over today cause we agreed on being crazy and have "break up sex". i told her would want more and she said she can come over every friday for sex and thats it which is fine. i can tell she doesnt want to let go cause i really do mean somthing to her but im just not the guy that would be able to be with her which i totally agree with. so it looks like that came to a halt about a month before i thought it would. since my last long term relationship about 2.5 years ago i had a couple short occurances with girls in my life and then a girl i dated for about a month in washington so this girl was the closest thing for me getting back into the dating world. it kinda made me question what ireally wanted. i think this subjext is long enough so i might do another post on the details a bit later.
poker was amazing, it just sucks that it wasnt amazing in a good way lol. i hit a cold deck like i never have before i such a short period of time (1 hour). so this is how the first hand goes. i flop middle set on a A Q J board. turn is a Q and river is an A and guy shoves for his remaining 50bb, i sigh and fold. no biggie right, what ever. next scenario i bluff off 50bb (i dont bluff that much in 10nl) another no biggie. now the sparks fly. i raise pre with 66 and get 2 callers. flop comes J 7 4. both players have a high vpip so i feel like this flop is dry enough i can stab at it even though i have a little equity. both players call. turn is a 6. alright! with both players calling than they should be able to call again i bet 3/4 pot. both call. river is an A kinda crappy card but people dont fold i shove they both call villan 1 has JJ and villan 2 has 77. yeah set over set over set how often does that happen. 5 hands later i have 66 raise pre and get like 4 callers flop comes 6 5 2. i bet out and player to my left raises. i feel like he has an over pair so i just smooth call. turn i like a 9 or somthing. since i called if he does have an over pair he might check through so i lead out about half pot and he shoves i call hes got 34 and holds. 2 hands later it folds to the hijack who raises. cutoff 3 bets really small. i feel like they were both stealing. i have kk on the button i just flat call. hijack 4 bets small, cutoff flats and i min 5 bet. hijack folds and cutoff shoves and i call AA vs KK and hijack says he had KK as well. last hand theres a lag that raises early with one caller i have AK and 3 bet. raiser folds and other player calls. flop comes 8 K 2 two spades. he leads out and i just flat. turn is a blank. he checks i bet he shoves i call and he has AK of spades. river is a spade. and in a short hour i lost 5 buyins (50$) and log off frustrated. again i will do another post about this topic a little later
well my mom came to see me on tuesday to get some lunch and after fighting with my girl. work was frustrating i was a little frustrated. she showed up late and i was all upset and had an argument with her. so yeah i got my mom all pissed at me as well. which i hate doing. im not even going to attempt to run any daygame this weeknd. plus ive got a couple lovely pimples on my face that just look so inviting.
so yeah that was my week of crap. im just going to not try and do much this weeknd except maybe watch some pickup material and browse the poker forum and look at shit on the internet. my spirits are hard to crash specially with a little variance like this so i will quote a line from the movie "batman: the dark night"
"The sky is darkest just before dawn, and i promise you dawn is coming"
stay tuned for the next couple posts if your interested in the indepth thoughts of the subjects i mentioned.
Sunday, September 9, 2012
going anywhere? nope.
well i've got a little bit to talk about i suppose but a little more let down than anything else.
ill start with poker since i feel ive let myself down in that more than anything. so my first session for the month went decent and i won 3 buyins which was good. the next two sessions i ended up losing 1 and 2 buyins resulting in a break even week for me. pretty lame. the last 2 days i litteraly just bairly turned up the aggression and felt like it went to shit. i got pretty frustrated over this last week that my preflop opening range out of position is going to be slimmed down to see if it creates any difference. the 10nl on merge is a bit softer than the 10nl on stars from what i remember. the 10nl on stars had a decent amount of regs on it and you knew who you could play back against. the player pool on merge is pretty bad which results to having to play pretty much for value and if you step to far with the agression than it shows and thats how i felt this week. playing for straight value is fine and dandy but its a bit boring. mix that with only playing 6-8 hours a week and you might see where the frustration builds. i feel like ive been tickled with a feather the last couple of months.
pickup went alright for what i did. i ended up going to the state fair one last time and did a couple approaches but didnt get anywhere and this weeknd i did 2 more approaches but didnt get anywhere. its starting to get pretty slim in anchorage. today its 50 degrees and sunny so its starting to get chilly and all the girls start going into hibernation. im still glad im out approaching anyways and keeping me fresh for when i move to cali in november.
so far this month has been a bit frustrating. work is moving along but its getting to the point where its lost its spark and im starting to get tired of it. ive got 7 weeks left and the last 4 are going to be grueling but well worth it. poker and pickup have been going really slow but i cant expect a whole lot after working 12 hours a day im more focused on being able to practice both before i move and start trying to get decent results. kinda lame this week but thats how its going to be for the next 7 weeks so just bare with me and then we'll get into some real excitement! but untill next time cosmonauts stay tuned :)
Monday, September 3, 2012
low volume, low results. august review
well everyone based off the title of the blog you can safely assume how the month went for me but here are the details.
in the life category things seemed to go pretty smoothly. at the beginning of august i was a little annoyed with how july went so i just decided to take a break from things for about a week. the rest of the month was fine but the things that mainly stood out are that i was getting really antsy waiting for the month to get done with just so that it could be september already and i would be that much closer to moving to L.A. also the state fair was going on the last 10 days so i planned to go to that which was fun other than that life was pretty much the same work, poker, daygame. (although there wasnt much of the last 2)
poker was interesting this month for what i did play. with me taking the first week off from grinding anything other than work i wasnt able to put in the number of hands i was usually capable of, but i was able to put in a whopping 12.5k hands woot. the best part about it was that my last 2 hour session i lost 4 buyins which was my biggest losing session this month and ruined my profit. according to hem i only made 2 buyins but im up 45$ this month (4.5 buyins)
i know i made a 5$ bonus so i might have been able to make 20$ in rakeback or maybe hem was off a little bit. anyway before my last session i was winning at like 5bb/100 i know it was only over 12.5k hands but it was nice to have a decent winrate compared to last month.
this month i found myself working on cold calling mainly preflop and working on playing specific player types. although my results were'nt the greatest i feel like i played really well and took in a lot of information that i havent necessarily always payed attention to. im most likely going to do the same this month and hopefully be able to put in about 25k hands and maybe make 100$. also i have been searching the details on how the commerce casino is and everything that goes along with it and i found out that a 5/10nl and 10/20nl pro by the name of bart hanson plays those games regularly and after looking him up i found out he does a podcast for deuces cracked about live play in those specific games.
its cool though cause deuces cracked is the site i use to study at and since hes playing in 5/10 it will give me a really good insight into the games while im there. i have some free time today so i listend to a couple podcasts and i think that i will be able to learn and take advantage of a lot of things from the podcast that will help my game a lot so im looking foreward to that.
daygame was pretty much the same as poker. very little volume and very little results. i did 5 approaches last month and that was all the results i did. it was a slack month all around but in my defense its not like i pussied out and didnt approach girls. its that i didnt come in contact with many situations to approach any girls. this month is already going better though and ive done 5 approaches and already got 1 number so hopefully i can put in a bit of volume with that as well.
since im a little more frequent with the girl ive been seeing that i picked up when i first got here i figured it would be pretty disrespectful to go with another girl. i dont find it wrong to socialize so thats what im trying to do when i approach. im just trying to practice my daygame and any number i do get i will practice my phone game since i need to work on that as well but i wont pursue the girl after that. for some reason though if i can set it up maybe after i hook the girl i can push her onto one of my friends and maybe share the wealth haha. anyways those are the goals for pickup for pretty much the next couple of months.
all in all though things went alright in august. a lot better than july. im really looking forward to this month and just put in as much volume as i can with the things i want and just get september done with so i can be into october and then onward to cali. pretty excited so i cant wait. but untill next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)
in the life category things seemed to go pretty smoothly. at the beginning of august i was a little annoyed with how july went so i just decided to take a break from things for about a week. the rest of the month was fine but the things that mainly stood out are that i was getting really antsy waiting for the month to get done with just so that it could be september already and i would be that much closer to moving to L.A. also the state fair was going on the last 10 days so i planned to go to that which was fun other than that life was pretty much the same work, poker, daygame. (although there wasnt much of the last 2)
poker was interesting this month for what i did play. with me taking the first week off from grinding anything other than work i wasnt able to put in the number of hands i was usually capable of, but i was able to put in a whopping 12.5k hands woot. the best part about it was that my last 2 hour session i lost 4 buyins which was my biggest losing session this month and ruined my profit. according to hem i only made 2 buyins but im up 45$ this month (4.5 buyins)
this month i found myself working on cold calling mainly preflop and working on playing specific player types. although my results were'nt the greatest i feel like i played really well and took in a lot of information that i havent necessarily always payed attention to. im most likely going to do the same this month and hopefully be able to put in about 25k hands and maybe make 100$. also i have been searching the details on how the commerce casino is and everything that goes along with it and i found out that a 5/10nl and 10/20nl pro by the name of bart hanson plays those games regularly and after looking him up i found out he does a podcast for deuces cracked about live play in those specific games.
daygame was pretty much the same as poker. very little volume and very little results. i did 5 approaches last month and that was all the results i did. it was a slack month all around but in my defense its not like i pussied out and didnt approach girls. its that i didnt come in contact with many situations to approach any girls. this month is already going better though and ive done 5 approaches and already got 1 number so hopefully i can put in a bit of volume with that as well.
since im a little more frequent with the girl ive been seeing that i picked up when i first got here i figured it would be pretty disrespectful to go with another girl. i dont find it wrong to socialize so thats what im trying to do when i approach. im just trying to practice my daygame and any number i do get i will practice my phone game since i need to work on that as well but i wont pursue the girl after that. for some reason though if i can set it up maybe after i hook the girl i can push her onto one of my friends and maybe share the wealth haha. anyways those are the goals for pickup for pretty much the next couple of months.
all in all though things went alright in august. a lot better than july. im really looking forward to this month and just put in as much volume as i can with the things i want and just get september done with so i can be into october and then onward to cali. pretty excited so i cant wait. but untill next time cosmonauts, stay tuned :)
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